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What do you think is human’s worst fear? No, not the fear of death. Loneliness. We, people, tend to avoid being alone with the closest, most understanding and dearest person – yourself.

This year I have enough energy to fix the loneliness issue for at least a few lucky individuals or perhaps even couples.
What’s on the menu?

Lifechanging experiences.

Authentic sensitivity. Sophisticated approach. Structured BDSM.

I hope you’ve noticed who I’m kissing in the photo. Meet my witch sister J.

I only met her a couple of months ago, and although we both grew up spanking tons of buts with loads of tools at LetzFetish Academy’s basement of Berlin’s Kitkatclub. So to not team up on the XXXmas adventure would be a crime against love.

For BDSM specifics, please check our fetlife profiles. This is mine. This is J’s. Just keep in mind that we are also so much more.

Click here for Dates and Locations.

on top of kink, we also provide
- Talk. Support and guidance to improve your mental well-being.
- Mentorship. Coaching, support, and education within the context of BDSM practices. This mentorship can cover various aspects of BDSM, including safety, communication, exploration of kinks, and the development of skills and techniques.
- Spiritual BDSM and shamanic rituals
- Immersive performances with other artists
- Photography and videos (done by us or other professionals)
- Special dining and drinking experiences
- Potentially everything else that you can politely communicate (if your request doesn’t fit us, we will direct you to someone else)
How much does it cost to hire a geisha and a priestess in a tandem?

alone we charge from 10000 EUR and, together – from 25000 EUR
What is included in the deposit/flat rate mentioned above:

Classic BDSM session, pre-session negotiation, security check, and of course aftercare. This is at least 10 hrs of our time in total, where half of it is preparation. Expect a lot of communication with us and our assistants to make your experience truly unique.

What is classic BDSM?
- Impact Play – using Floggers, Paddles, and Whips
- Candle / Wax Play – drops of hot wax (customized temperatures) dripped or poured on your naked body, possibly including your genitals and nipples. Or, simply lighting candles placed on your body
- Electric Play. Stimulating shock play
- Ice Play
- Temperature play. Wax drops, water, ice cubes combined
- Foot, High Heel & Boot Worship
- Trampling – Standing on your body, cock, or face
- Pet play – Training and depersonalizing you as a dog, pony, or pig, or any other animal
- Bondage – Cuffs, ropes and chains
- Nipple torture – Twisting, pinching, and the use of clamps and wax
- Tickling – Sensory play or a form of “edge play,” which pushes the boundaries of your comfort zone
- Mummification – Plastic wrapping from head to toe. (pro tip: recommended with wax drops)
- Humiliation – Verbal degradation, physical acts, or role-playing scenarios i.e. making you a piece of human furniture, spitting, gags, face slapping, ball kicking, ash play, etc.
- Watersports – Golden showers into your mouth or other parts of your body
- Breath play – Smothering, choking, or facesitting (clothed)
- Urethral play – Stimulating your penis through metal sounding plugs
- Pegging – Strap on session where you become our little slut
- Sissy Play – Makeup, crossdressing, domestic servitude & maid training
- Interrogation – Various forms of torture using restraint, such as being tied to a chair or X-cross
- Sensory Deprivation – Intensification of the remaining senses and creation of a heightened state of awareness, vulnerability, or anticipation through blindfolds, hoods, or other tools to restrict sight, and sound-canceling devices or silence for auditory deprivation. Various techniques used to limit the senses of touch, taste, or smell
- Latex / Rubber / PVC clothing
- Training and discipline
- Customized role-playing scenarios
Why us?

Because what we do is art. Also, we play like we’ve spent a few lives together.

We are not just special. We are everything you could dream about, but also professional and sensitive. Playing with your levels of dopamine, adrenaline, serotonin, and endorphin.

We are both good to start with if you are new to this, and a perfect match for those who have tried everything or are looking for a more tailored experience.

How to book us

step one – deposit

We request the deposit upfront. Direct bank transfer or crypto. We can provide you with an invoice or arrange full anonymity.

Send your requests for bank transfer details to bookings@sicut-dico.com

Send crypto to Coinbase Wallet @wallet976gnc34j5izfe

Don’t just say hey! Politely introduce yourself, specify the date, location, and other details.

Step two – negotiations and warming up

After the deposit is paid and the date is secured you will have a direct chat with us and two of our assistants. There is no such thing as too much preparation for a session.

Hotel rooms and studios are to be paid extra.

Don’t think for too long – we have only a few slots by this year’s end. From the next one, the price will grow.

Confidentiality and security

We guarantee the safety of your identity and full discretion. If you are sensitive to this topic, don’t hesitate to mention it. We help to take every precaution.

Don’t get scammed! We will never approach you on social media trying to sell our services. We don’t offer discounts, our assistants do not approach anyone with a sales offer. All our accounts are listed here, on this website.
December 14, 2023
After-hammer; Thoughts and Feelings

hope it went well

The text below I sent to my lawyers in response to their “I hope everything went well” on my return from the outdoor performance that I call now the hammer message (that I went to deliver in person to the city of Prague’s police drugs department. Click here to read the message text)

“Everything went perfectly, I couldn’t have imagined it any better. I arrived barefoot with my poster hanging from a hammer, and I stood in front of the drugs department for almost 3 hours.

I hadn’t managed to prepare the Czech translation properly and had only used the text in English. So I expected very few people to understand my message. Maybe tourists, and they were really funny, some tried to give me money and realized that wasn’t the point.

However, I’m proud and impressed by the way people reacted to my message. I’m proud and impressed by the way the police treated me. I didn’t feel threatened, but many of them approached me. They also took photos from the windows. They smiled. One of them called what I had done a performance art and asked me if it was right to call it that. One of them said “Good luck”. Nobody spat in my face. Nobody told me to leave.

So I intend to come back with a version of my message in Czech and a slightly different structure of it.”

How did I feel after?

Calm. As if I’d done exactly what I had to do. I think that’s what you call being fulfilled. I wrote most of this the next day, but I decided to give it more time to see if I still feel that way later.

Yes, I still do.

I also feel grateful to myself for allowing this experience to happen. I think I’m still decoding what I learned that day. And for sure I’m still processing the feedback.

Here’s a first glimpse of what I have to share.

1st half-hour

In the morning, the traffic wasn’t calm and I sensed a lot of anxiety in the driver. I told him I wasn’t in a hurry and when we arrived he was calmer than before. I suppose I took some of his anxiety with me.

I arrived at 9:08 AM. I was full of anxiety, but it wasn’t mine.

(I left home wearing flip-flops, but in a taxi, I immediately took them off and put them in my bag. Touching the ground with my naked soles was somehow calming me down.)

The first hour was the slowest, the easiest on my mind, and perhaps the hardest on my body. I chose the spot, took my hammer out of the bag, put the poster on it, and started to meditate on my breath to slow it down. I looked at the buildings, the trees, the windows, the cars, and the people.

I recognized smells and heard sounds, but above all, I concentrated my mind on a single task.

To stay as far away from judgment as possible. Just to observe and be there. I only wanted to bring the message. I was the message.

The first people to interact with me were tourists. They tried to give me money. A coin.

I wasn’t prepared for that at all. I didn’t accept the coin. They insisted a bit. Not verbally. They spoke German in front of me, assuming I couldn’t understand them. While I was thinking about what I could say to them in German, they left.

My body tensed up after that. The longer I stood there, the more uncertain I felt. I wasn’t cold, even though I was dressed very lightly, but I was frozen. I could feel different levels of anxiety from outside, absolutely everyone around me was more or less anxious, whereas in my mind alone I felt peacefully numb.

I saw a lawyer arriving late to an anxious client, people waiting for an appointment without knowing what was going to happen to them, people arriving and parking anxiously, forgetting things in their car, typing something on their phones.

All kinds of anxiety were somehow presented to me there

How do I know that? Anxiety has a particular smell for me. It’s slightly bitter. I wish I could explain more.

At the time, I found it interesting to observe the extent to which anxiety allowed others to notice me. For example. The most anxious didn’t see me at all.

The construction workers smiled at me a lot. They were the calmest people I’d encountered there. And I started to smile back. And almost immediately I felt my body become lighter and stronger. That was the key.

I started smiling at windows, at people in cars, and even at grumpy faces.

When the first two people who obviously worked in one of the buildings came up to me and nodded, I smiled at them, probably like an idiot. They were standing in front of me and really reading my text, line by line, both of them.

I was ecstatic to have the chance to observe them so closely, but I also felt that my main aim at the time was to make them feel as comfortable as possible when reading my text. I tried to give them space and not stare at them all the time. It wasn’t easy. I was curious to see their reactions.

The second half of the hour

The later it got, the more people there were in the street and the more overwhelmed I felt.

My original idea was to change places every 30 minutes or so. But when I got to the second place, some lady came and told me I wasn’t supposed to be there.

So I moved 30 meters and realized I was in front of the drugs department. The universe had spoken. I changed my plan and stayed there for the rest of the time.

2nd hour

After 10 o’clock, the street really came alive. More clients and lawyers. More cars. More tourists. More anxiety.

I smiled at the windows and noticed that I was being photographed.

A lady from a nearby Kostel came up to me and said that we should find God together in church. I replied that I had already found God who had told me to be exactly where I was. To do what I was doing. I didn’t even feel weird saying that. I meant it. I still mean it.

The lady didn’t like my answer. She looked at me disappointed and walked away mumbling something unclear.

3rd HOUR

After 11 o’clock, I had to move back, closer to the wall of the building, so as not to disturb passers-by. Once or twice I had to ask people who stopped to read my message not to block the whole street. I knew I’d need a break soon. But the situation was getting more and more interesting.

I found it particularly fascinating to observe again and again how some people seemed to be eager to tell me what they were thinking, but when someone else approached, they stopped talking and walked away. As if they could only speak with me when no one else was close.

I left just before midday. At first, I thought I’d take a break and come back. But my body sent me a few clear signals that the show had to be over with that. And my mind agreed that we should come back with the message in Czech.

I think that was the most important thing I realized that day. It’s definitely the language I want to learn and speak.

Why did I do this?

I think that was the question that was asked the most that day. Not only from the people in uniform but also from strangers. Some asked me if it was personal. Had they done something for me? Or a friend of mine? One Canadian dude really tested my patience by asking me to tell him whether I was for or against the police.

I continued to say that I was there to serve art and love. And to point out that we don’t prosecute for tools like hammers, but we do for other tools like drugs.

I felt like someone had to do what I did

We don’t have to be stupid squirrels. We have god-like technologies and tools already and acting rather medieval when it comes to regulating them. This can change. We just have to stop acting as if we know what’s right and wrong. We don’t. Not yet.

It was not an act of protest. Neither did I try to support anyone.

To be completely honest – I had no clue why I was doing it until it was done. Until I was there.

Now I know

Or let’s say I know more than before. I needed this experience to understand my own strengths and weak spots even better. It was quite a therapy for me. Especially the feedback I received after.

Now I know I’m not alone for sure. I always thought so. But now I really know.

I’ll share more on this topic soon. Thank you for reading this. If you like what I’m doing consider supporting my work.

Photos by Paw Patrol. Proof-reading – Gene Bogolepov.

December 4, 2023
Social Media status update for IG junkies

(CW: NSFW, profanity, nudity, capitalism and mental health)

As I predicted just a few weeks before – I got blocked on IG. Well. What can I say? I didn’t even start posting the fun stuff. But I’m not surprised.

I’m not sad about it either. I’m taking this as a badge of honor. Also, no, I’m not going to start over there again. For fuck sake why should I?

Let me share a piece of text I was writing in a private email about one project related to mental health issues to make it crystal clear at least between us here.

I don’t believe that YouTube or Instagram are resources for fighting the crisis. They are the cause. Of course, this is my personal judgment based on my experiences. But let me be even more direct: none of these capitalist-based media platforms want to talk about the mental health problems they create.

Why would they?
Let’s try to slow down and breathe into this question. Why whoud the companies making billions from people’s screen addiction want to even see this as a problem?

I’m not saying I will give up on all the people using Instagram daily. Quite the opposite. I’m just not planning to create more accounts there myself. I’ll explain.

All photos illustrating the social media series represent our collective attitude to the current state of the social media world. Don’t try to make sense of what you see. I mean try but not too hard.

Photo by WhiteOrchestra

Why do we keep feeding the monster?

Of course, I understand the crowd effect. They say jump. They always do.

Of course, it was also convenient for me to use IG to connect with people and get clients.

It’s been around for so long. It’s almost like some people can’t even imagine the world without it.

I, gladly, can.

None of the things they accuse me of are lies. Or wrong. It’s just not okay on IG. I’m simply seeing this as there is no space for me on this platform. Nothing personal. I just have no right to be there according to the rules.

What I don’t understand is why other people like me keep coming back to IG even though they are being treated like shit by Meta? It’s almost like they accept that there is no alternative to it. They censor themselves. They try to play by the rules. Try to fit in.

Photo by WhiteOrchestra

But there is something else I’m pretty confident about. I’ve seen what happens when the majority accepts that they have no rights. They lose not only their rights. They lose the ability to make their own choices at all.

Yes, I’m referring to my experience with russia. I’m afraid I can’t ignore the similarities.

(Btw, I still have my account on IG with most of the posts in russian. Here it is.)

To be able to make a choice we need to believe in the existence of options.

Photo by WhiteOrchestra

Would you like to start a little revolution with me?

No. I’m not going to invite you to quit Instagram today. I know it’s too much.

I’m only offering you to consider the existence of different choices, and not just blue pills and red pills. Imagine there are all kinds of colors and you can mix and match.

You don’t have to make your choice today.

Photo by WhiteOrchestra

You maybe don’t even have to choose between them at all.

What you can do today, though, is to light up the match for yourself.

Do a little research on the topic of decentralized media if you don’t know what it is yet. Look at the history. Ask yourself: do I feel good using Meta products?

If you are investing your time into any other platform – please just read their terms and conditions. Don’t produce content blindly.

If you stopped using Meta products and found another way, don’t blame others who can’t do it yet, just share what works for you.

let’s be kind to each other

Offering and accepting the idea of different choices. I don’t believe that we can force anything else.

Photo by WhiteOrchestra

Although on my end I’d like to propose another safety option for sex workers and adult content creators of any kind.

I’m ready to make and maintain a professional catalog on my website, for now, just a simple list with links and names, so people who don’t have their own website can have a link to share that can’t be blocked, also exchange audiences between independent sex workers, photographers, if they have sites and so on.

Also, I keep inviting you to look at alternatives to Meta and join the decentralized media world via Mastodon or in any other way. Discover it for yourself. If you like the kind of content that you see here, I promise, you’ll meet more people like me from all over the world.

What do you think?

You don’t have to tell me. I mean I’d be glad to hear, too. But. Tell your followers on IG or Twitter. Tell your friends. There’s no universal solution. It’s okay. The only thing I’m trying to convince you to see – there are options.

if you want to be on this list email me at sw@sicut-dico.com (put “SW catalog” in the subject) – you can apply as a model, as a content creator, as a sex worker, or like me, state yourself as all of this.

Photo by WhiteOrchestra

What else?

If you are an active IG user you might want to follow the accounts of my team members, we’ll try to forward most of the important information there to keep you updated.

Photo by WhiteOrchestra

You can follow the accounts that Sil created recently here and here. They will mirror the most important posts on this website to a degree that IG allows.

Here you can follow the account mirroring this website.

This one is for artists and canbedone people.

If you want to help me dismantle capitalism consider supporting my blog or buying my products.

August 16, 2023
Midyear update for returning users
(trigger/content)Warnings: money, politics, strong personal opinion, longread, no nudity)

First of all, I feel very nice to know that I’m not just screaming into the void anymore and have more curious souls landing here daily to watch me.

Welcome.

However you got here.

Who is this post for?

If you are here to see how my project develops – this post is for you for sure. If you have your own project in development or only plan to start something, feel free to learn from my mistakes. You can send me a blank email to newsletter@sicut-dico.com to get updated without following me on social media.

But let’s get to the screenshots below. Here I try to show you a bit of the dynamics of returning and new users over the last year according to google analytics.

My plan is to update you on every 1000 unique users landing here until it gets either too fast or too boring. Now it’s getting more and more interesting every day, but it’s my perspective.

Let me first explain what it means – to get 1000 unique users on an independent website. But while I’m doing this I’m going to ask you to try to not think of these 1000 users from the perspective if it’s good or bad. It’s neither. It’s just a step. It’s just a number.

Half of this time or even more I had less than 30 users a month. In December 2022 I published twice more posts as during all the months before.

I launched the store in April 2023.

I have around 500 followers on Instagram, less than 300 on Mastodon, below 100 on Chaturbate and Fetlife, below 10 on Reddit.

I had less than 10 orders through the store. Most candles I sell before taking pictures of them.

So here I have to ask you and myself to stop evaluating and get back to observing. None of the things mentioned above are good or bad.

From the side of my expectations, the candle business is going faster than I expected and most of the time I like it, the development of the audience is rather slow though. I guess the perfectionist inside me expected this to happen faster. Like a lot faster.

Well. I’m very grateful to myself that I could actually take it so slow.

The spikes represent the moments when I’d posted more actively but in general, I consider my posting activity quite low at this whole time and inconsistent.

It’s good that it’s slow enough so it’s possible to actually see the magic later. Or the absence of it. Depends how you look, of course. Also, my posting consistency is getting better, obviously.

But what is the price of this all? I received a lot of feedback. Positive, negative, constructive, judgmental, mixed, carefully sorted. Silence and ignorance count as feedback too. I got plenty.

Why do I not care for followers on social media? How dare I write so much about myself? Why do I not run ads for myself if I run them for others? How is it so complicated and disturbing? Why do I price myself so high? Do I promise something, but not deliver it? Do I really want to sell candles or do I just want attention?
generalised feedback from mainstream social media audience

All those questions I received daily. The most invasive ones come usually as dm’s on Instagram. Some came from people who barely knew me, some from absolute strangers, funny enough even people whom I considered close to me tended to slide into my dm’s with one or two phrases generally telling me that I’m not fulfilling their expectations for some reason.

That’s one of the things why I don’t like mainstream social media for. Their whole concept is toxic. Especially Facebook products – they are designed to help the black-and-white style of thinking to thrive and consume our souls.

I’d like to keep mine away from that madness. As much as I can.

So here is the compromise. I keep running my accounts on the evil soil because I can connect there with other like-minded people. But don’t generate content that benefits the platform and I for sure do not give it my own money anymore.

If you are one of that returning users, you probably already got that. But I’m trying to make sure we are all on the same page.

What is going on here now?

This post is an explanation that will work only for people who are ready to understand. The speed of growth might change soon. So this post is also my intention to document the current statistics and comment on what I consider important to share right now.

When we were in Greece, I got my old Instagram account unblocked with 6000 users who knew me as a russian-speaking blogger. It returned to me after almost a year-long ban.

I didn’t advertise this website to them yet. I’m not sure they’ll all like what I have to say here, but I think some will understand.

Here’s the link btw – if you only know me from my English-speaking side, you may have to use the translation function. It’s also a private account, since I posted anti-Moscow ideas last year I suffered my first bot attack, I don’t need to see it again. I add new real users 2-3 times a week, feel free to knock on my old life door if you’re real.

Just keep in mind – the person who used to run that blog is dead. I’m not that person anymore. I might have inherited some of the values, perhaps some hobbies, but not all the stuff by far.

I like how innocently touristic we look here with Gene

That’s exactly why I created this site. To grow my own bubble of people who appreciate the same things and care about feelings in the same way. But this time with no chance for any platform to take away my right to connect with those who chose to connect with the new version of me. And it’s happening.

Well. Like everything that happens to me, it’s a bit wild and full of complications, but it’s okay.

Store orders, bookings and emails

I’m still more or less a one-person operation. The people who help me are listed as co-creators but they all have their own projects, so I’m open to hiring more assistants for canbed.one purpose, my kinky projects and the general goal of the destruction of capitalism, but this will be unfolded in another post.

I’m at least a week behind on emails, I’ll catch up by the end of this week.

Shop orders are already underway, if you’ve ordered candles you’ll get updates by tomorrow evening

I’m fully booked for July and August. If you’re thinking of hiring me this year, please get in touch now.

What’s the plan further?

Have I ever said that I dream to fuck capitalism with its own relics?

It’s not just a pretentious phrase. My dreams have a high chance of becoming real if I focus on them. That’s exactly the part of the magic I’m trying to show you. Or the absence of it.

But it’s not an easy task either. I’m going to need your help.

I intend to keep going on the energy exchange where I give what I have to give, and those who have the intention to take the gifts can take them anytime they feel ready. The story will only get better with time.

Next station is: money making factory

Here we are getting to the part of the story that you can’t see at all unless I expose it

My financial results from this project. (You can see the euro symbol on the screenshots, but google analytics doesn’t represent reality) Also, I need a good accountant to give you better money stats, but let’s start with some numbers today.

In the first year, I got a bit more than 200 EUR from less than 15 people.

In the last two months, I got more than 2000 EUR (from how many people – impossible to say, that’s why I need an accountant).

But I think those who want to understand my point about sharing money dynamics got the point. Or hopefully a few points. I have no intention to write them down here, it’s too early. But I want to write a few more questions here.
1. Would it be possible for me to even go this way without having a financial backup pillow from my old life?
2. If I, a professional marketing specialist and business owner with 10+ years of experience, feel frustrated sometimes while promoting myself because it’s a completely different story, then how the hell are other artists without all this experience supposed to handle all this shit?
3. Can we change the situation by exchanging our experiences more openly, actively, and with a higher level of transparency?
4. How does talking about money often makes you feel?
5. Have you ever thought about how useful it is to preserve the current state of the financial system if everyone more or less avoids talking about money unless absolutely necessary or feels uncomfortable asking for payments?
Anyway. Call me crazy, but I want to live in a world where paying for something or being paid for something aren’t off-putting topics.

There’s no shame in exchanging resources or power consensually.

In this world, everything has a price. We pay with money, our time or our health, our kindness or our reputation, and some things cost some of us our lives. Nothing is free. We are the essential result of an exchange of energy, whether we like it or not. But the part where right now most of us are born already in debt does not have to stay.

I’m sorry if that’s complicated.

That’s why I’m here asking you to be patient and kind. I slowly understand myself and allow you to see the world as I see it. As I feel it. Not to make you feel the same. Not to evaluate things as right or wrong.

I don’t have all the answers.

I’m only the impulse.

So the next step is the one where I help Gene with their financial strategy and focus on making communication about money more comfortable for us all.

If you like what I’m doing you can support my blog here. If you want to follow our discussion about money specifically – send us a blank email with the word “money” in the subject field to newsletter@sicut-dico.com.

Since you’re still here, let me give you a quick example of the toxicity of modern media. This is a photo of Gene eating seafood (which I paid for) after having a horrible, expensive coffee for breakfast (which I also paid for). It was literally the only enjoyable food we’d eaten in the last 48 hours, while Gene worked for me in multiple roles, 10-12 hours a day. But if you don’t know all this background and you see Gene asking for money for her grocery bills the next day, will you feel like helping her?
July 12, 2023
Late May chronicles with nudes and music by Gene
I always knew that she is talented, but I thought of her as a talented musician. Turned out Gene is a decent nude photographer as well.

I’m attaching songs to each themed round of photos and am curious to see if this format works.

ROUND 1. GOLDEN HOUR

Nothing straight is one of the songs I like to use to introduce Gene’s music. It’s a good representation of what we mean by queer pop. And who we are.

Art Brut (Special Edition) by bogolepov

This gallery is from the Czech countryside where I plan to come back more often this summer. Nature is amazing. The people are lovely. I could definitely imagine buying an old farm building and turning it into a recording/streaming studio with a spa block.

ROUND 2. PLAY BEFORE CHECKING OUT

For the next gallery Gene recommended their song called Simplicity. I have no objections.

1314 by bogolepov
Both galleries were taken in minutes. It’s pretty much a documentary: there’s no set up, no preparation process. Also I posted now all the shots taken whatsoever. I like how she sees me. I can’t choose.
ROUND 3. KITCHEN NUDITY AND PROSERPHINA

French toast and church bells can lead to the creation of a new religion. That’s what I can tell you so far. A bit more info on this topic is on my Mastodon.

Art Brut (Special Edition) by bogolepov

ROUND 4. PORTRAITS

No more music in this post, but here is the link to Gene’s website once again. If you like their music consider buying it or sharing it.

Also, no more nudity left for today. Just a bit of humor. I thought this can be a funny pack of stickers.
- 🤨
- 😬
- 😂
- 😇
- 🙄
- 😑
- 😏
- 🥴
- 🙂
Thank for your attention, darlings. All the money that I get from nudes I forward to support people of Ukraine affected by the war.
If you like what I do consider supporting my blog.
May 30, 2023
Let’Z Fetish 27.05. RAW

Most of the content I created last night was video and it needs to be processed. This post is just a pile of data available at the moment and my typical gratitude to the audience and people who have trusted me in other ways

On the menu we had candles and sessions. In addition, we performed blind temperature sensitivity tests and collected lots of fun data. I’m impressed. But we need more data.

Of course, one other person touched me because I’m so sweet and naked and everything is love. Of course, that person was taken to our sweet and friendly security team upstairs. I feel like we should talk about rules more often and not when someone has already slapped my arse while I was closing my bags at 6 am. Way before.

I’m not sure I want to run a Telegram channel again, but it seems the Berlin crowd is using it one way or another. For now, I try to keep you up to date with Mastodon’s help. At least with nudes and online events.

Evil candles will land in Ari‘s collection. Nice to see KitKat thriving and fucking again. Video is coming, but first I need to sleep more and share the energy I got with other SWs tomorrow.

I try to keep you up to date with Mastodon’s help. At least with nudes and online events.

May 28, 2023
Dates and locations

(TW: short suicide mention, massive solipsism)

UPD: May is fully booked.

This post is for everyone who actually wants to meet me or cares for me otherwise. Yes, I know it became difficult recently. I’m also freaking out with the speed of my life. But it’s okay. It’s normal for me.

The only solution for this I see is planning. Yes, the plans tend to fall apart, but that’s why we have backup plans, right?

I recharged my batteries and am ready to share. I have a fresh set of warnings though. It’s not gonna get less disturbing than it already is. If it is there, it’s there. If what I say, write, or do is already at least partially disturbing for you – this will only get worse. And it has to get a lot worse before it can get any better. I’m sorry if you are not ready for me. It’s not your fault. Neither it’s mine. The world is broken, not us.

Anyways.

Here is what I have on my plate for the next couple of months in terms of

dates,

locations,

and requests for the universe.

Now you can’t tell me you didn’t know.

I can be booked alone or with co-creators. My calendar is especially well synchronized with Gene and WO and we still have some free dates in July and a strong will to undermine the System.

May

The first two weeks of May I was freezing my ass to an average temp of +11C in Norway. Turned out it was necessary to speed up the process of killing the old version of myself. That one that wants to kill me from time to time.

Looks like I’ve found its weak spot. Finally!

I’m back in Prague and generally available for bookings and creative exchange here, in Berlin by arrangements, and what’s most important for now: ONLINE.

Dates:

27.05. – Kitkatclub Berlin – in charge of Let’Z Fetish Academy station (clinic area) – if you plan to be in the club and wish to collaborate on content creation – contact me asap.

19/24/29/31 – creative support groups (CBD project) – free online meetings for creators on topics of motivation, mental health, addictions, financial independence, and productivity.

Online groups on the 19th and 29th with be hosted on Chaturbate. The topic is SEX WORK, of course. Here is a post with more information on this event.

Locations:

By the end of the month, I’m planning to balance between Prague and Berlin, with a few stops in the Czech countryside.

Accepting recommendations and company for wakeboarding, wind, and kitesurfing locations in CZ, DE and around EU.

Requests to the universe:

We are still looking for a home in Prague for Sil and her 2 children. She is in Kyiv for now but will be back next week and I think this is my most important wish this month: to find a comfortable place for them. So if you know a real estate agent who ~~is not an asshole~~ could be ready to help us, or a landlord renting out 2KK+ or a bigger flat in Prague, or might know one of them, please share this request and point them to me.

June

UPD: fully booked for June

dates & Locations:

1st-15th – creative escape in the Czech countryside

8th – Psycho KitKat Berlin,

15th-25th Athens, Greece,

26th-31st Berlin

ONLINE:

5/12/19/26 CBD creative support groups

Requests to the universe:

1 music studio, 1 rehearsal base, accountants, lawyers, drivers, likeminded people, 1 sailing teacher, 1 good psychiatrist, 1 wakeboard trainer

July

Partially available in Berlin and Prague, planning a show in Prague and another creative escape in the countryside after it.

Feel free to reach out about booking specific dates, my July is flexible until the end of May. More info will appear later.

Requests to the universe:

BDSM ballet’s first action must happen in July, not later. Not sure if I can or should explain why. I trust myself in this and asking you to join me.

If you know me and managed to read until here – write the fuck to me already, let’s plan something. If you don’t know me, but like what I do consider supporting me or spreading the word about my projects.

Love!

May 16, 2023
Good news, everyone!

Your Mistress is still a criminal according to the local standards. Still, since the bureaucrats can’t really ruin my life due to my marriage with an EU citizen, I’ll only get a fine for bringing my dangerous “narcotics” to this safe county.

I’m utterly exhausted emotionally, but I also feel like it wasn’t just happening with me, it was happening FOR me. So I could eliminate illusions concerning our state of development and awareness.

On Monday I met one more person who was put on my case and I still can’t wrap my head around the idea, that more than a dozen of people were involved in dealing with me and my 5 grams of herb that is growing on this planet perhaps longer than we exist.

Anyways. This probably will seem ridiculous but I feel grateful for this experience. Not to Norwegian police, don’t get me wrong. To myself. For how I managed to handle this crisis.

It’s not the first one for me. And not the last one, most likely. But it’s the first time when I almost immediately shared my feelings here and almost immediately I received support.

Now I’m returning to the original plan of having my sailing vacation and freezing my ass out in this beautiful and windy coldness.

Here are some pictures from my phone so you can also enjoy the landscapes, alpacas and me doing nothing on the boat.

Thank you, darlings, for having my back.

May 9, 2023
Thoughts, nudes, Gene and candle packaging (train update)

hello, darlings

I have no pictures on my phone from last Saturday and half of the performance that I did that night unfortunately was not documented at all.

However.

slides from the performance on 25.02.2023 at Kitkatclub Berlin

slides from the performance on 25.02.2023 at Kitkatclub Berlin

slides from the performance on 25.02.2023 at Kitkatclub Berlin

That night for sure is going to stay in my memory and most likely in the memory of others who witnessed the show. Some pictures are coming for sure, but later. Today I only give you a chance to see how Gene was seeing me in the last few days. I have to say, I’m feeling inspired and refreshed.

As if we got one step closer to overthrowing capitalism and killing putin at the same time.

Below are the pictures of my outfit where I want to advertise a piece from Danilov Harness and in general just keep pointing your attention to amazing kinky brands from Ukraine.

leather chain by Danilov Harness

originally this was a skirt

but I mostly wear it on my chest

I got this item as a gift from a lover from Dnipro

I’m wearing it weekly for already more than a year

the quality is quite good!

I’ll show you more ways of using it soon

support Ukranian fetish brands

I’m very grateful to my colleagues from Let’Z Fetish academy and Ari Denaro specifically for letting me do my art and supporting me in my craziness.

ALSO! A huge thanks to Ben for being so helpful and brave, sorry I burned your wiener!

Another gallery of pictures where I’m already a lot more dressed shows the process of packing and signing candles. I don’t buy any special package material, all candles are packed and signed by me, and with packing materials that were already in use.

Gene has a few more candles in Berlin for picking up. The store is close to being launched. Now preparing drops for Paris and London and can accept 1-2 custom orders.

That’s more or less it for now and the train is almost arriving in Prague. Thanks for reading me.

Love!

Sicut

February 27, 2023
Stand with Ukraine by supporting its kinky clothing and lingerie brands

Cheesy media outlets would call this something like “15 Amazing Ukrainian Brands That Set Women Free”, I just can’t do that shit anymore (being a part of the cheesy media world.) These are links to brands and products still being made in Ukraine today.

They’re amazing, kinky, and not only for women.

I kindly ask you to share this list with your friends or anyone looking for stylish naughty outfits and spicy fetish clothes for parties or private events. Just product photos are already pure aesthetic fun.

This war is so much about money that by supporting any Ukrainian product we help the fight for freedom and every little bit counts.

anoeses.com

anoeses.com (main page screenshot)

This brand is perhaps the best known as of recent, and what they do is pure art. I’m sure some of you have already noticed my colleagues tagging them or wearing their items.

Their offerings range from gorgeous sets, items in mesh and latex, and accessories like cuffs. It is especially amazing to see their efforts to respect the diversity of body types, and there are some options for male bodies in varying fabrics as well. From full-coverage bodysuits to harnesses and stockings, often on a great sale, this is an artisan brand to look extremely sexy in.

baedstories.com

baedstories.com (main page screenshot)

Exquisite role-playing lingerie: superheroines, uniforms, gothic and religious aesthetics with free shipping on orders over $100.

I didn’t think I was that interested in roleplaying aesthetics until I found this site. This is a rear case where the maid and nurse outfits don’t look silly but are in fact beautifully hot and powerful.

bobbasset.com

bobbasset.com (website screenshot)

This amazing mask designer got my attention already after this post was published. One nice user on mastodon recommended them and I lost track of time on their website. Scull cross masks are my favorite, but the selection is quite wide and wild.

@danilov_harness

instagram.com/danilov_harness (IG feed screenshot)

I personally own the Danilov harness item, it was a gift from a dear lover; a leather chain that you can see me wearing on my chest on the main page. This chain is actually a skirt… but I’ve used it in so many other ways, I’m not sure I should call it that. Anyway. The quality is incredible!

@_entasis_

instagram.com/_entasis_ (IG feed screenshot)

A rather innocent looking account with handmade corsages accepts custom orders and, in my opinion, should have more followers than it does at the moment. Lots of taste and passion.

iamyourfetish.com.ua

iamyourfetish.com.ua (shop page screenshot)

A brand from Kyiv whose name and style match particularly well. Small collection but each item has its own vibe.

loveunderlingerie.com

loveunderlingerie.com (shop page screenshot)

Lingerie brand produces mesh and lace-up sets in a variety of colors with customization options. Free international delivery on all products.

marimoth.com

marimoth.com (main page screenshot)

US-based brand from Ukraine offering lingerie, harnesses, garters and homeware. Classically hot.

@nedbas.official

instagram.com/nedbas.light (IG feed screenshot)

Unusual handmade natural leather corsages, belts and BDSM accessories. They seem to have a few accounts on Instagram, so I’m linking to both here.

overtheseadress.com

overtheseadress.com (shop page screenshot)

It’s not really a fetish brand but look at the silky coats, they are terribly seductive. I’m not talking about the vintage style and the boho dresses they make. It’s sensual and feminine but also very modern and playful in a way. Shipping worldwide from $16.

@portupeya_

instagram.com/_portupeya__ (IG feed screenshot)

Creative vegan harnesses and garter belts from Kharkiv are now being produced and shipped from Poland all over the world.

shurshur.com

shurshur.com (main page screenshot)

This brand is a jewel for all stocking and garter belt lovers. The candy color combinations are extremely tasty. Delivery is to Europe and North America.

ttswtrs.com

ttswtrs.com (shop page screenshot)

Again, it’s not really a kinky brand even though it’s from Ukraine originally and also very well known in some bubbles. I love their onesies and the whole project which leans much more towards art direction in terms of clothing production. Free worldwide shipping on orders over $385, standard shipping is $40.

wolfsnaht.com

wolfsnaht.com (shop page screenshot)

The Lviv-based BDSM brand I first noticed on Instagram for the gladiator-style harnesses on female bodies also offers impact play toys, masks and necklaces. The website is in Ukrainian but it mentions delivery abroad.

zhilyova.com

zhilyova.com (shop page screenshot)

Another inclusive and beautiful lingerie brand I’ve been watching for a few years doesn’t get much publicity, but I see people wearing it and looking fabulous. Worldwide delivery, free shipping on orders over $250.

If you have more kinky brands from Ukraine to add to this list let me know and I’ll be glad to update the post.

More information on how to help Ukraine right now is here.

February 15, 2023