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  • Preaching à la russe

    Preaching à la russe

    (Content Warnings: improper rusky language, war, suicide. The version in English is coming) (!) Внимание. Это сложный пост. Он может вызывать амбивалентные чувства. “Тут все иносказательно, но я в душе не ебу как другим рассказать это.” Неваляшка. Song by Oxxxymiron. Начнем сразу с главного? Перечитывая свой блог недавно, я сильно удивилась тому, сколько мелочей, о…

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  • Social Media status update for IG junkies

    Social Media status update for IG junkies

    (CW: NSFW, profanity, nudity, capitalism and mental health) As I predicted just a few weeks before – I got blocked on IG. Well. What can I say? I didn’t even start posting the fun stuff. But I’m not surprised. Let me share a piece of text I was writing in a private email about one…

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  • when a hammer is just a hammer

    when a hammer is just a hammer

    CW: Police, suicide, activism, drugs Update. It’s 13:06 (25.07) I got back home and washed my feet, and now my plan is to briefly write down the things I want to share here and then I need to take some rest. I’m impressed. I knew it was the right thing to do, but I had…

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  • Midyear update for returning users

    Midyear update for returning users

    (trigger/content)Warnings: money, politics, strong personal opinion, longread, no nudity) First of all, I feel very nice to know that I’m not just screaming into the void anymore and have more curious souls landing here daily to watch me. Welcome. However you got here. Who is this post for? If you are here to see how…

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  • The link of hope

    Long Awaited Silence Of Mind (坂本龍一に捧げる) by bogolepov Hope is an excellent example of a magical power that can also be made by hand. This post is my gentle push into universe number 2 and, I hope, a demonstration of that power. The first one I wrote almost 2 weeks ago on Mastodon. Below is…

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  • Ultimate warnings

    Ultimate warnings

    Please, read the content warnings in my posts carefully and do not continue if you feel uncomfortable. Ask for help. Or just ignore me. This post is my response to all sorts of unwanted feedback I’ve received so far and will be receiving in the future. it’s OK not to like what I doI didn’t…

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  • SWSG LIVE MAY

    UPD – support group at 11 AM CEST is happening as planned, more info will appear here. My chaturbate room stays embedded at the end of the post. Next time I plan to be online on Monday the 29th of May. To join the Q&A session say hi to me via sw@sicut-dico.com 19.05.2023 15:13 The…

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  • Dates and locations

    Dates and locations

    (TW: short suicide mention, massive solipsism) UPD: May is fully booked. This post is for everyone who actually wants to meet me or cares for me otherwise. Yes, I know it became difficult recently. I’m also freaking out with the speed of my life. But it’s okay. It’s normal for me. The only solution for…

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  • Good news, everyone!

    Good news, everyone!

    Your Mistress is still a criminal according to the local standards. Still, since the bureaucrats can’t really ruin my life due to my marriage with an EU citizen, I’ll only get a fine for bringing my dangerous “narcotics” to this safe county. I’m utterly exhausted emotionally, but I also feel like it wasn’t just happening…

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  • Suicidal crisis in Norway

    Suicidal crisis in Norway

    TW: suicidal thoughts and hypocrisy I don’t know if we should call the mess we all live in a civilization. It’s terribly misleading. I write this partly to digest the events myself, but mostly to expose the reality. To whom it may concern. I don’t have a big audience here yet. Also, it doesn’t matter.…

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