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  • Who am I? And why should you give me money?

    Part 1. WHO

    My mom said I should not have this kind of provocative headline. I understand the fear; however, I am writing this post not to provoke anyone, but to literally answer the questions. In this fake world, it might be too real for some. Not my issue, though.

    Let us begin by simply listing the things I do; later, I will unfold each one of them in a separate post.

    1. I am a professional dominatrix: mindful, sensitive, direct, sadistic and skilled. I specialise in pain play and also in guiding people with little experience into safe ways to enjoy their kinks. I’m also a huge fan of bi play.
    2. I am a performer who can work on stage or with a live audience. Mostly, I now do wax play performances, but I would love to collaborate with some rope artists or other BDSM-related disciplines.
    3. I make my own candles for wax play. They are slightly cooler than basic paraffin, and I know for sure they are body-safe, including for the face and genital areas. Originally, I was streaming the making process on this website. I will do it again soon.
    4. I am an activist. I have done a number of artistic protest actions in Berlin and Prague, mostly against the terrorist state of Russia, but also against Elon Musk in front of Tesla. To be honest, I don’t call them protests—I call them cursing actions.
    5. I am a priestess. I can curse, I can heal, I can set souls on fire or give them peace. I serve no one but the universe, and I am here to wake up humanity, as well as to support those who are already awake and suffer from what they witness.
    6. Last but not least, I am a spicy content creator. My porn is raw, honest, and unapologeticaly unpolished: real orgasms, no-makeup scenes, no cuts or retakes. I have accounts on most of the fan sites and am filling them up now. I manage it all myself, so you will definitely be chatting with me, just be patient.
    Now lets get to the WHY? Briefly

    Short version is – because you have them. Of corse, I will give you more details in each of the next posts, so stay tuned and take care of yourself well.

  • What TF is going on here

    This blog was born almost exactly 4 years ago. Same as the name Sicut Dico. Yet, today I have to start from scratch again and learn one very important lesson about trusting men. Or actually not trusting. Unteel thez learn my trust.

    Anyways. In the next 30 days I will republish important articles that I have written earlier along with writing fresh and raw notes on the current state of things, so you get some taste of my life in the past months and years.

    Here’s the first article I wrote here in 2022: https://sicut-dico.com/2022/02/01/as-i-say/

    Don’t forget to check my other links: https://linktr.ee/sicutdico

  • Notes on the ruSSian culture and IG

    Dostoevsky was a chauvinist relic, but he wasn’t wrong about everything.
    Some people aren’t people — they’re things, dead weight wrapped in skin.


    And the world works fine as long as they understand that.
    The crisis begins when the majority doesn’t,
    when the hollow ones start nodding like they matter.


    Pathetic. Bur scary

    Below are the photos I had to rip off Instagram
    after I ended up sparring with nazi vermin —
    born in the US, born in the USSR, doesn’t matter.
    Fascism has the same stench everywhere:
    rotting arrogance dressed as morality.

    So now my tits are even rarer.
    Thank them for the scarcity.
    They did you all a favor.

    Your old melon,
    with love, poison, and perfect clarity,
    your Sicut

    photo-credit https://www.instagram.com/bulltosh/

    for more eplicit stuff check my links at https://linktr.ee/sicutdico

  • The Making of a Dominatrix — On the Birth of the Inner Sadist

    The Making of a Dominatrix — On the Birth of the Inner Sadist

    Chapter One — Siberian Gopnik School

    It was definitely the soviet school system — my first contact with sadism, violence, and so-called real education. I changed quite a few schools. I was a tall girl, already very opinionated; as the teachers labeled me, I was sensitive and rather naïve.

    So I quickly learned how either to avoid trouble — which in soviet school means not to stand out — or how to deal with bullies. And here I mean both: teachers and other children.

    The taller I grew, the more I had to give up on the art of blending in. And the better I became at dealing with all kinds of bullies. I was a horrible teenager. But I survived — without a massive trauma or a heroin addiction. Some of my later classmates didn’t.

    That stage taught me to be extremely creative with what’s in the room. It taught me how to threaten verbally and to escalate first, to avoid the physical fight. You have to be smarter and bolder than your opponent. You must attack first.

    Basically: you have to become the bully.

    Chapter Two — Cultural Fascism at Uni

    When I moved to saint petersburg, people tried to reduce my Siberian background to “village girl.” Little did they know I had traveled in one year as much as most of them had in their lives. There I began to learn the art of humiliation, sarcasm, and mind games. It took me ten years to escape that cloak of russian culture.

    One useful thing at university was the course they canceled after me: History of Religion. It made me a complete atheist at that point. I also learned that big business is run by big, cruel idiots.

    Back then I thought it might be only in russia.

    I was naive.

    Chapter Three — The Real Stuff

    When I had to deal with the russian police, that’s where I finally touched the hardcore stuff — or, more accurately, where the hardcore stuff touched me.

    I guess this is where my habit of trying toys on myself first comes from. It’s also where I encountered some quite non-consensual power exchanges. Writing this now, years later, I begin to think it was partly my choice to experience that simply by physically being in russia.

    Oh — and of course I had a violently envious boyfriend who taught me a few self-defence tricks for close combat. I broke his nose with my elbow; later my mother visited him in hospital because he was crying like a child. It was useful learning: if you show up with a black eye at university, very few people will care. Those who do will likely judge or insult. No one will offer support. Good thing I already had true friends and wasn’t alone.

    So here are the three pillars of my sadistic persona. However overall experience also taught me that violence and hostility do not always mean power. Quite often the opposite.

    Imagine — this is just the beginning. Uh?

    Next chapter is about my gentle and caring side and it is coming right up. If you wish to contact me, feel free to email with a propper introduction.

  • Who the Holy F am I?

    (CW: final confession, artistic vision, esoteric message, strong personal opinion)

    I am the blood from the soils where Mongolia, Kazakhstan, China, and russia stand now, carrying the legacy of the Altaic princess, a daughter of Kali, daughter of the earth itself. Reincarnation of Mary Magdalene, I have returned to reclaim my mind and spirit. It is time for the East to awaken, to rekindle wisdom and seek enlightenment. It is time for the western civilizations to accept mistakes and boldly act towards finally learning from history. 

    I am here to remind us all that humanity’s true goal must be collective happiness; to reach this, we must end our conflicts and learn from one another. No one can understand ultimate power without experiencing complete helplessness. No one should be allowed to possess those powers without facing the consequences of abuse.

    Every living soul will benefit if we dismantle the dominance of empires and vast nations.

    Humanity has already learned what democracy is, but we’ve forgotten that democracy is a continuous action, not something to be abandoned to those who cannot understand its depth.

    Science and spirituality must reconnect, guiding us in reinventing religions and refining the values we hold sacred, all while leaving violence behind. We must teach humanity to process anger and ego on every level. We must learn to understand death and cherish the journey of aging and growing wiser. At the same time, we must prevent those who cling to old ways from hindering our progress.

    The world has pressing issues around nationality, superstition, and gender. We can overcome these, but we must first learn to manage anger and, most importantly, to learn love—starting with self-love. This journey of self-acceptance is deeply connected to education, especially around sexuality and boundaries from early childhood.

    We need to rebalance power to reshape the world, letting new voices bring fresh vision. We should stop seeking God outside of ourselves; the Healers and Creators of magic are among us already, and it’s time to support them. We must replace fear and hate for what we don’t understand with study, patience, and sensitivity.

    We must gather as much knowledge as we can, share it with care and respect, dig beneath the sacred places with an open heart and cold head, and uncover the secrets our ancestors buried out of fear and lust for power. Once humanity is sexually satisfied, emotionally balanced and spiritually aware, we’ll be one step closer to true happiness and harmony.

    There’s no ultimate truth for all. We are all different. Always were. Always will be. This is our biggest strength. This is life itself.

  • There is no god to save them

    There is no god to save them

    (CW: political activism, strong personal opinion)

    The Requiems project was first performed in Berlin and later in Prague, featuring music created by Bogolepov. Our original idea was to address the “elephant in the room” before the show at Berghain: a stark reminder, first to ourselves, that the war in Ukraine is ongoing and that it’s dangerous to let ourselves grow numb to it.

    This time, we included Rage, song by Nadya Tolokonnikova, founder of Pussy Riot. Wearing that pink balaclava felt especially powerful, particularly while watching embassy workers grow visibly uneasy, anxiously ushering visitors inside.

    I’ve received many kind words of support recently, and I want to say how much they mean to me. Surprisingly, this felt easy to do—even though it involved 2.5 hours of holding a 6-kilogram speaker without a break for water or a toilet. Once again, I felt like I was exactly where I needed to be, doing what I’m meant to do.

    During the performance, we played the four songs twice at each of the five spots around the venue. Sil filmed the last three locations, capturing the raw energy of the event. She’s already back in Kyiv, catching up on sleep amidst the ongoing Russian bombing of her city, which is why she hasn’t posted further updates yet.

    Playlist link:

    https://sicut-dico.com/2024/11/14/requiems-playlist/

    Help us link: Ko-fi.com/sicut_dico

    Help us funding Sil, here’s the support link again. On the night before the event, she also took many new photos of me, including several intimate, unfiltered shots.

    This event wouldn’t have been possible without the incredible support of Expat Legal, my amazing Czech attorneys and personally Mr. Enes Zaimovic, also my dedicated assistants, Paw and Sil.

  • requiems playlist

    (CW: Playlist to eliminate homo sovieticus)

    Est valde difficile ad mundare sanguinem exaruit
    et magis credere in deo post

    non est deus salvet te

    Save it to play it for your annoying russian neighbor
    Below are articles on previous events
    There is no god to save them

  • Waxplay performance menu

    Waxplay performance menu

    strategic concept

    As an artist, I’m generally interested in exploring the theme of sex and politics in the same room. I believe it’s still possible not to spoil the party atmosphere, but also to educate and raise awareness while offering new experiences. Please note that I don’t exist solely for entertainment.

    However, as an artist eager to be commercially profitable, I fully understand the need for entertaining activities. So here’s a brief list of possibilities for an interactive waxplay station and shows. My work can be a fast, deep experience that captures all attention for a short time – that’s a package with bogolepov. Alone, I can do all-night performances in a few acts that have different levels of audience interaction.

    As an anti-capitalist, I want to make it clear that I’m open to non-profit work in support of righteous ideas and needs, yet the more commercial the event agenda, the less likely I am to be cheap.

    One sub performance

    This is a great way to get the party started. I can finish setting up my human candlestick in front of the audience, then perform the tests or play with my victim. I usually use the steak thermometer with a needle, and sometimes offer to have the guests help me. Sometimes I ask the victim to hold the thermometer and shout out the number. It all depends on what you want from the show. The softer versions are more elegant. But I can also do more edgy things. It’s important to understand the audience’s expectations.

    Interactive Station

    A station is a place to experiment with different melting-temperature candles, compare them, and learn how to use them safely. When interacting with guests, I personally guide them on how to use the candles, offering safe methods for experimentation or even a quick session. I have several approaches to presenting waxplay and typically choose the one that feels most fitting in the moment while speaking with someone.

    For larger events, I can bring in trained assistants to handle one or two specific scenarios, ensuring more guests can participate while maintaining safety and quality experiences.

    Performances with a group of subs

    I can work on a stage or immerse my show in the venue. 20 years’ experience in event production allows me to guarantee to do the best with what’s available. The more people involved, the more time I need to prepare though. Or more money.

    Waxing myself

    Yes, I can do it in front of an audience (if the audience is safe). I can also talk to people while I’m doing it. Politics or sex? Both, of course. Again, the level of weirdness can vary: I can be dressed up and wax my feet or… use your imagination depending on your budget.

    Immersive performance with sound and video effects

    with Gene, we offer shadow theater performances, sexual healing dance sets and custom installations with other creatives.

    This was originally a summary of a recent conversation with a party organizer. I’ve decided that you all have the right to know what kind of shows I can do.

  • Waxplay 101

    Waxplay 101

    I’m grateful that you decided to try my candles, and if it’s your first time, the basic info below is meant to make your experience safer.

    Please read it carefully before playing!

    what do you need to know about waxplay to enjoy it?

    No hard rules have to be followed apart from consent and safety. Things can be very, very, VERY different:

    • sensual and slow with single drops,
    • intense and intriguing with solid streams of wax,
    • in combination with impact play,
    • mixed with sex toys,
    • also, you can turn your Sub into a human candle holder.

    Whatever you do, you can absolutely do it and, (as other strangers on the internet would confirm, you have the right to choose whatever suits you best to explore your kinks. Do what you like, if it’s safe and consensual, everything else is totally optional).

    Below I only describe things so you might consider them, but only the person lighting up the candle knows exactly how the play will go from there.

    This is where the control exchange begins and all the beauty of it.


    negotiation

    Consensual power exchange starts with respect to this power on both ends. Being in charge is a responsibility! At least this is how I see it.

    Every session must begin with the negotiation stage and the party starts right after. For shy people, I can recommend negotiating some details in text messages (it’s always helpful to give all sides enough time to think things through), but I personally enjoy having little chats with my victims face-to-face about the following topics:

    • safe words (red, green, yellow – always work well);
    • areas on the skin where the wax will be applied and where it should not go;
    • what else is going to happen or what should not happen;
    • where exactly will the play happen (because waxplay can be messy)?

    Wax play is essentially pain play, and even though my candles can be quite mild, the whole point of the game is to produce the chemicals in our brains. And as far as I know for those fuckers pain and pleasure can be exactly the same thing. But how to get there – everyone has their own unique recipe.

    room preparations

    Well, let’s start with the practical side: you might want to care for the furniture, leather surfaces, and carpets because it might be difficult to clean the wax from them.

    You also might want to plan the escape path to the bathroom or shower for your victim.

    If I have to improvise I usually use a bedsheet to cover the floor or wherever the sub is placed, or I cut a few big garbage bags and tape them to the floor, rubber sheet etc.


    A good Pain game takes time and patience

    It starts with making sure everything goes through the steps so the pain level increases slowly. It’s always nice to start with hands. Just spank the spot. Or massage if you want to keep things sensual.

    Everyone is different, don’t assume, ask. Explore together with your partner(s).

    Always try new candles on your own skin. Ask your partner about allergies. Ideally – make a little test before playing.

    do and don’ts 
    • be careful, and remember the pain delay: the drop lands and heats a few seconds longer (try for yourself)
    • do spank, massage, or pet the area before
    • do combine with other practices and sex toys
    • do ask for feedback (at the beginning especially)
    • be creative and enjoy the mess
    • don’t surprise people with waxplay
    • don’t play with intoxicated people and watch yourself with substances
    • don’t ignore the fire safety basics
    • don’t play in an environment or location that will hate you for the wax after
    • don’t use candles as dildos! (they soften from body temperature)

    where to put wax and not 
    • first, start with a 20 cm distance between skin and flame, don get too close to the skin!
    • keep the wax away from the eyes and ears
    • be careful with hair
    • genitals are okay, but only after gaining specific consent
    Removing wax

    Removing the wax from the skin is much easier once it’s completely cooled down.

    Thicker layers of wax fall off in bigger pieces, while single drops might stick to the skin more. You can try to prolong the play and scratch the wax from the skin with nails or something made of metal. Another fun activity is to whip the wax from the skin with a flogger, but I’m not sure if it’s still about basics.

    aftercare

    Give the Subside some peace after the session. No jumping around for the first 5-10 min, and in general the longer the play was – the longer the aftercare should be. Of course, everyone is different, and some people might feel very active and elevated after, while some are tired and empty.

    Applying creme or aloe vera gel on the skin after the session might be very pleasurable and recommended as part of an excellent aftercare protocol.

    After long painful sessions, aftercare is essential and is highly important to help process the experience and leave the most positive memory of the play.

    Have fun! Stay safe and mindfull.

    Your S.

  • As I say

    First things first: this is a queer space where respect is a top priority, so
    please be kind to each other and then feel free to be weird as well. There is no place for judgment.

    Now we get to another important topic. Which is – me, of course. What else could this blog even be about? It´s about my dark side as well as it´s about self-love, acceptance, vulnerability, and control. Or the absence of control for some.

    First I wrote: “It’s about becoming a Mistress.” – but it´s not exactly correct, I have to tell you because there is no becoming of any kind happening inside me. Unleashing – perhaps is a better term. Mistress has been there the whole time, not sure if it´s just her alone. I could describe the process as an inventory of possible personas and characters hidden inside me. Some of them are more ready to get out than others, but I can guarantee, that even for me this is highly fascinating.

    What else? I like to introduce myself as a kind pervert, a passionate exhibitionist, and a curious explorer of the limits and borders of my own and others. On my non-kinky side, I´m a low carb enthusiast, a former marketing strategist, and mental health activist. But this blog also has a sub-task of teaching me to take myself less seriously, so let´s stick to the kinky part.

    Anyways! In my quest for world domination, I decided to start with your butt. So pants down because I will spank it with stories of my kinky explorations.

    If you like what I do consider supporting my work or follow me on social media and help spreading the word about me, whatever you choose, you are welcome here.