Open for modeling for creative and non-profit projects.
Planing to make a lot of video content this month, so looking for co-creators of any kind.
Can take one paid session per city while traveling through and two sessions in Prague. Deposit from 250 EUR.
Hit me up via sicut@sicut-dico.com
03-04.03 Madrid, ESP
05-07.03 Alicante / Valencia, ESP
07.03 Bilbao, ESP
08.03 Bordeaux, FR
09-10.03 Paris, FR
11.03 Sittard, NL
12.03 Berlin, DE
18.03 – 31.03 Prague, CZ
We’re here in the Algarve until the end of February, and we’re curious to get to know local kinky and queer folk. For that matter we’re setting a few dates to meet collaborators, lovers, friends and in general people who are curious just as we are.
I’m your mistress Sicut Dico. Gene is here with her immersive music, art, and more. We have a few friends along with us, who might be able to satisfy your other needs if the time comes for it.
We are currently based between Albufeira and Lisbon. We would love to know what locations are the most comfortable for you. We could meet at our villa, apartments, the beach, your place, or more. Just let us know!
There’s lots you can learn about what we do from our website and from the options below. We kindly ask you to fill out this form with the options that appeal to you most. Once we know what you’re into, we can get around to satisfying your needs.
21.12. Soelden
22.12. Innsbruck
23-24.12. Zürich
25.12. Lugano
25-28.12. Milano, Florenz
29-31.12. Geneva
1.01. Montpellier
2.01. Barcelona
3.01. Madrid
8.01 – 30.01 – South of Portugal or southwest of Spain.
The whole month in Portugal. Plans to visit Faro, Lisbon, Porto, and everything in between.
Check How to buy me? and SuperXXXma$$ offer before reaching out.
What do you think is human’s worst fear? No, not the fear of death. Loneliness. We, people, tend to avoid being alone with the closest, most understanding and dearest person – yourself.
This year I have enough energy to fix the loneliness issue for at least a few lucky individuals or perhaps even couples.
Lifechanging experiences.
Authentic sensitivity. Sophisticated approach. Structured BDSM.
I hope you’ve noticed who I’m kissing in the photo. Meet my witch sister J.
I only met her a couple of months ago, and although we both grew up spanking tons of buts with loads of tools at LetzFetish Academy’s basement of Berlin’s Kitkatclub. So to not team up on the XXXmas adventure would be a crime against love.
For BDSM specifics, please check our fetlife profiles. This is mine. This is J’s. Just keep in mind that we are also so much more.
Click here for Dates and Locations.
alone we charge from 10000 EUR and, together – from 25000 EUR
Classic BDSM session, pre-session negotiation, security check, and of course aftercare. This is at least 10 hrs of our time in total, where half of it is preparation. Expect a lot of communication with us and our assistants to make your experience truly unique.
Because what we do is art. Also, we play like we’ve spent a few lives together.
We are not just special. We are everything you could dream about, but also professional and sensitive. Playing with your levels of dopamine, adrenaline, serotonin, and endorphin.
We are both good to start with if you are new to this, and a perfect match for those who have tried everything or are looking for a more tailored experience.
We request the deposit upfront. Direct bank transfer or crypto. We can provide you with an invoice or arrange full anonymity.
Send your requests for bank transfer details to bookings@sicut-dico.com
Send crypto to Coinbase Wallet @wallet976gnc34j5izfe
Don’t just say hey! Politely introduce yourself, specify the date, location, and other details.
After the deposit is paid and the date is secured you will have a direct chat with us and two of our assistants. There is no such thing as too much preparation for a session.
Hotel rooms and studios are to be paid extra.
Don’t think for too long – we have only a few slots by this year’s end. From the next one, the price will grow.
We guarantee the safety of your identity and full discretion. If you are sensitive to this topic, don’t hesitate to mention it. We help to take every precaution.
Don’t get scammed! We will never approach you on social media trying to sell our services. We don’t offer discounts, our assistants do not approach anyone with a sales offer. All our accounts are listed here, on this website.
(CW: NSFW, profanity, nudity, capitalism and mental health)
As I predicted just a few weeks before – I got blocked on IG. Well. What can I say? I didn’t even start posting the fun stuff. But I’m not surprised.
Let me share a piece of text I was writing in a private email about one project related to mental health issues to make it crystal clear at least between us here.
I don’t believe that YouTube or Instagram are resources for fighting the crisis. They are the cause. Of course, this is my personal judgment based on my experiences. But let me be even more direct: none of these capitalist-based media platforms want to talk about the mental health problems they create.
Why would they?
Let’s try to slow down and breathe into this question. Why whoud the companies making billions from people’s screen addiction want to even see this as a problem?
I’m not saying I will give up on all the people using Instagram daily. Quite the opposite. I’m just not planning to create more accounts there myself. I’ll explain.
All photos illustrating the social media series represent our collective attitude to the current state of the social media world. Don’t try to make sense of what you see. I mean try but not too hard.
Of course, I understand the crowd effect. They say jump. They always do.
Of course, it was also convenient for me to use IG to connect with people and get clients.
It’s been around for so long. It’s almost like some people can’t even imagine the world without it.
I, gladly, can.
What I don’t understand is why other people like me keep coming back to IG even though they are being treated like shit by Meta? It’s almost like they accept that there is no alternative to it. They censor themselves. They try to play by the rules. Try to fit in.
But there is something else I’m pretty confident about. I’ve seen what happens when the majority accepts that they have no rights. They lose not only their rights. They lose the ability to make their own choices at all.
Yes, I’m referring to my experience with russia. I’m afraid I can’t ignore the similarities.
(Btw, I still have my account on IG with most of the posts in russian. Here it is.)
To be able to make a choice we need to believe in the existence of options.
No. I’m not going to invite you to quit Instagram today. I know it’s too much.
I’m only offering you to consider the existence of different choices, and not just blue pills and red pills. Imagine there are all kinds of colors and you can mix and match.
You don’t have to make your choice today.
You maybe don’t even have to choose between them at all.
What you can do today, though, is to light up the match for yourself.
Do a little research on the topic of decentralized media if you don’t know what it is yet. Look at the history. Ask yourself: do I feel good using Meta products?
If you are investing your time into any other platform – please just read their terms and conditions. Don’t produce content blindly.
If you stopped using Meta products and found another way, don’t blame others who can’t do it yet, just share what works for you.
Offering and accepting the idea of different choices. I don’t believe that we can force anything else.
Although on my end I’d like to propose another safety option for sex workers and adult content creators of any kind.
I’m ready to make and maintain a professional catalog on my website, for now, just a simple list with links and names, so people who don’t have their own website can have a link to share that can’t be blocked, also exchange audiences between independent sex workers, photographers, if they have sites and so on.
Also, I keep inviting you to look at alternatives to Meta and join the decentralized media world via Mastodon or in any other way. Discover it for yourself. If you like the kind of content that you see here, I promise, you’ll meet more people like me from all over the world.
You don’t have to tell me. I mean I’d be glad to hear, too. But. Tell your followers on IG or Twitter. Tell your friends. There’s no universal solution. It’s okay. The only thing I’m trying to convince you to see – there are options.
if you want to be on this list email me at sw@sicut-dico.com (put “SW catalog” in the subject) – you can apply as a model, as a content creator, as a sex worker, or like me, state yourself as all of this.
If you are an active IG user you might want to follow the accounts of my team members, we’ll try to forward most of the important information there to keep you updated.
You can follow the accounts that Sil created recently here and here. They will mirror the most important posts on this website to a degree that IG allows.
Here you can follow the account mirroring this website.
This one is for artists and canbedone people.
If you want to help me dismantle capitalism consider supporting my blog or buying my products.
(trigger/content)Warnings: money, politics, strong personal opinion, longread, no nudity)
First of all, I feel very nice to know that I’m not just screaming into the void anymore and have more curious souls landing here daily to watch me.
Welcome.
However you got here.
If you are here to see how my project develops – this post is for you for sure. If you have your own project in development or only plan to start something, feel free to learn from my mistakes. You can send me a blank email to newsletter@sicut-dico.com to get updated without following me on social media.
But let’s get to the screenshots below. Here I try to show you a bit of the dynamics of returning and new users over the last year according to google analytics.
My plan is to update you on every 1000 unique users landing here until it gets either too fast or too boring. Now it’s getting more and more interesting every day, but it’s my perspective.
Let me first explain what it means – to get 1000 unique users on an independent website. But while I’m doing this I’m going to ask you to try to not think of these 1000 users from the perspective if it’s good or bad. It’s neither. It’s just a step. It’s just a number.
Half of this time or even more I had less than 30 users a month. In December 2022 I published twice more posts as during all the months before.
I launched the store in April 2023.
I have around 500 followers on Instagram, less than 300 on Mastodon, below 100 on Chaturbate and Fetlife, below 10 on Reddit.
I had less than 10 orders through the store. Most candles I sell before taking pictures of them.
So here I have to ask you and myself to stop evaluating and get back to observing. None of the things mentioned above are good or bad.
From the side of my expectations, the candle business is going faster than I expected and most of the time I like it, the development of the audience is rather slow though. I guess the perfectionist inside me expected this to happen faster. Like a lot faster.
Well. I’m very grateful to myself that I could actually take it so slow.
The spikes represent the moments when I’d posted more actively but in general, I consider my posting activity quite low at this whole time and inconsistent.
It’s good that it’s slow enough so it’s possible to actually see the magic later. Or the absence of it. Depends how you look, of course. Also, my posting consistency is getting better, obviously.
But what is the price of this all? I received a lot of feedback. Positive, negative, constructive, judgmental, mixed, carefully sorted. Silence and ignorance count as feedback too. I got plenty.
Why do I not care for followers on social media? How dare I write so much about myself? Why do I not run ads for myself if I run them for others? How is it so complicated and disturbing? Why do I price myself so high? Do I promise something, but not deliver it? Do I really want to sell candles or do I just want attention?
generalised feedback from mainstream social media audience
All those questions I received daily. The most invasive ones come usually as dm’s on Instagram. Some came from people who barely knew me, some from absolute strangers, funny enough even people whom I considered close to me tended to slide into my dm’s with one or two phrases generally telling me that I’m not fulfilling their expectations for some reason.
That’s one of the things why I don’t like mainstream social media for. Their whole concept is toxic. Especially Facebook products – they are designed to help the black-and-white style of thinking to thrive and consume our souls.
I’d like to keep mine away from that madness. As much as I can.
So here is the compromise. I keep running my accounts on the evil soil because I can connect there with other like-minded people. But don’t generate content that benefits the platform and I for sure do not give it my own money anymore.
If you are one of that returning users, you probably already got that. But I’m trying to make sure we are all on the same page.
This post is an explanation that will work only for people who are ready to understand. The speed of growth might change soon. So this post is also my intention to document the current statistics and comment on what I consider important to share right now.
When we were in Greece, I got my old Instagram account unblocked with 6000 users who knew me as a russian-speaking blogger. It returned to me after almost a year-long ban.
I didn’t advertise this website to them yet. I’m not sure they’ll all like what I have to say here, but I think some will understand.
Here’s the link btw – if you only know me from my English-speaking side, you may have to use the translation function. It’s also a private account, since I posted anti-Moscow ideas last year I suffered my first bot attack, I don’t need to see it again. I add new real users 2-3 times a week, feel free to knock on my old life door if you’re real.
Just keep in mind – the person who used to run that blog is dead. I’m not that person anymore. I might have inherited some of the values, perhaps some hobbies, but not all the stuff by far.
That’s exactly why I created this site. To grow my own bubble of people who appreciate the same things and care about feelings in the same way. But this time with no chance for any platform to take away my right to connect with those who chose to connect with the new version of me. And it’s happening.
Well. Like everything that happens to me, it’s a bit wild and full of complications, but it’s okay.
I’m still more or less a one-person operation. The people who help me are listed as co-creators but they all have their own projects, so I’m open to hiring more assistants for canbed.one purpose, my kinky projects and the general goal of the destruction of capitalism, but this will be unfolded in another post.
I’m at least a week behind on emails, I’ll catch up by the end of this week.
Shop orders are already underway, if you’ve ordered candles you’ll get updates by tomorrow evening
I’m fully booked for July and August. If you’re thinking of hiring me this year, please get in touch now.
Have I ever said that I dream to fuck capitalism with its own relics?
It’s not just a pretentious phrase. My dreams have a high chance of becoming real if I focus on them. That’s exactly the part of the magic I’m trying to show you. Or the absence of it.
But it’s not an easy task either. I’m going to need your help.
I intend to keep going on the energy exchange where I give what I have to give, and those who have the intention to take the gifts can take them anytime they feel ready. The story will only get better with time.
Here we are getting to the part of the story that you can’t see at all unless I expose it
My financial results from this project. (You can see the euro symbol on the screenshots, but google analytics doesn’t represent reality) Also, I need a good accountant to give you better money stats, but let’s start with some numbers today.
In the first year, I got a bit more than 200 EUR from less than 15 people.
In the last two months, I got more than 2000 EUR (from how many people – impossible to say, that’s why I need an accountant).
But I think those who want to understand my point about sharing money dynamics got the point. Or hopefully a few points. I have no intention to write them down here, it’s too early. But I want to write a few more questions here.
Anyway. Call me crazy, but I want to live in a world where paying for something or being paid for something aren’t off-putting topics.
There’s no shame in exchanging resources or power consensually.
In this world, everything has a price. We pay with money, our time or our health, our kindness or our reputation, and some things cost some of us our lives. Nothing is free. We are the essential result of an exchange of energy, whether we like it or not. But the part where right now most of us are born already in debt does not have to stay.
I’m sorry if that’s complicated.
That’s why I’m here asking you to be patient and kind. I slowly understand myself and allow you to see the world as I see it. As I feel it. Not to make you feel the same. Not to evaluate things as right or wrong.
I don’t have all the answers.
I’m only the impulse.
So the next step is the one where I help Gene with their financial strategy and focus on making communication about money more comfortable for us all.
If you like what I’m doing you can support my blog here. If you want to follow our discussion about money specifically – send us a blank email with the word “money” in the subject field to newsletter@sicut-dico.com.
Hope is an excellent example of a magical power that can also be made by hand. This post is my gentle push into universe number 2 and, I hope, a demonstration of that power.
The first one I wrote almost 2 weeks ago on Mastodon. Below is a screenshot of it (which I took just before publishing this one).
For a whole bunch of reasons, I can’t get any more involved in the process of attracting public attention and helping someone in a horrible situation personally. But I found the solution and I think that even if, by the time attention is drawn, the system has already spat the person out, it is absolutely necessary to investigate and understand how this is possible.
Somehow I just happen to be the one to start the process. If I would be religious I could say that I was chosen to do so. But I simply understand the pain. And how stupid and unnecessary it is.
My Norway crisis made me realize one particular thing about the systems of power. Even the most civilized ones. They have no soul. But humans do. Even those who choose to lock their souls behind their badges.
This post I wrote a week after getting back from so-called vacation and it doesn’t matter how this information got to me. But matters when. Exactly in the middle of my own mental crisis.
Yes, this is also a good example of how unproductive is helplessness. No likes. No boosts. I wish I could phrase it better that day.
Maybe I’m being overly sensitive as usual. But I have a strong feeling that we need some democracy here. Not better phrasing. And I’m afraid democracy is a process that involves people and their will to do something.
So my link of hope will lead today to my dear Gene. I’m asking the ones who are close to the person in jail. I know you are reading this. Please contact Gene on any social media with a private message or send an email to gene@bogolepov.eu
Gene will keep us all updated further. Btw she just released a new single (you can listen to it while reading this post). Please consider supporting her work if you like what we do.
Here is what’s given again:
The person was supposed to be released in April this year but his family still has no contact with him now and the public defender that was involved is stating that nothing can be done. It’s been two months since his sentence was supposed to end.
Is it okay to just lose a person in jail?
Is there something wrong with me that I can’t accept as a topic that needs to be kept quiet about?
The answer should come in actions. I’ll add links to this post on different social media once we get it reposted. Please share it wherever you can, if you want to help, and however you want. Use your own words. Take a screenshot of mine. Repost. Comment. Talk to your lawyer buddy. Support my blog.
If you have practical ideas on what legal actions can be done and are willing to help personally – contact Gene.
Please, read the content warnings in my posts carefully and do not continue if you feel uncomfortable. Ask for help. Or just ignore me.
This post is my response to all sorts of unwanted feedback I’ve received so far and will be receiving in the future.
it’s OK not to like what I do
I didn’t choose to be born the way I am.
it’s okay not to understand why I do what I do
It’s fine to be confused. Be kind to yourself. That’s what we should all try to do more often.
It’s OK to be different
I don’t want to lose myself in self-promotion, but the world needs to know how I feel.
Creating freedom is far more important than reach. So I refuse to waste my life on platforms like IG. It’s toxic for me and too fake. Even if most people will never click on my links and get to know the real me. That’s okay. Some will.
I ask you to pay attention to my openness and not to play with the powers that come with it. I don’t exist to entertain you or for you to judge me.
I exist to connect minds and build new bridges.
This is my playground. My temple. And my artistic study (all that and so much more).
Not everyone is ready for me. But if you understand me. Or at least want to try, you’re always welcome here. Feel free to be weird. Be yourself.
There’s nothing wrong with asking questions. I think it’s cool to be curious. Remember how different we can be.
just mind the content warnings!
Love you,
Sicut
UPD – support group at 11 AM CEST is happening as planned, more info will appear here.
My chaturbate room stays embedded at the end of the post. Next time I plan to be online on Monday the 29th of May. To join the Q&A session say hi to me via sw@sicut-dico.com
19.05.2023 15:13 The first round of broadcasting is done, uploading the recorded video now, and will drop it here soon.
Did eventually 2 rounds of broadcasting, received one token at the end, and one comment on Mastodon with a “thank you”.
18.43 Now I feel like I didn’t say even half of what I wanted to say. But let’s count this as one more reason to continue.
20.05.2023 11:59 Here is the recording from yesterday. My imposter syndrome was especially strong this morning telling me to not post the video because I’m too honest, too vulnerable, too stoned, and/or just not good enough. But I decided that I don’t have the right to judge.
13:56 Asked Gene to look at the material, in the meanwhile sent a link for prepayment to a client and talked to another who picks up freshly done candles today. This is a moment to remind myself about my own rule. Actions are always better than words. I’m fully booked in May. June and July are half gone. I have more plans and clients to deal with than I can possibly take as a single human being. I sell candles faster than make them and I didn’t even start advertising the store yet.
No, this is not an accident.
Yes, I totally believe that other people can get there too and this world needs more happy sex workers and free creators of any kind of safe and fun experiences.
(TW: short suicide mention, massive solipsism)
UPD: May is fully booked.
This post is for everyone who actually wants to meet me or cares for me otherwise. Yes, I know it became difficult recently. I’m also freaking out with the speed of my life. But it’s okay. It’s normal for me.
The only solution for this I see is planning. Yes, the plans tend to fall apart, but that’s why we have backup plans, right?
I recharged my batteries and am ready to share. I have a fresh set of warnings though. It’s not gonna get less disturbing than it already is. If it is there, it’s there. If what I say, write, or do is already at least partially disturbing for you – this will only get worse. And it has to get a lot worse before it can get any better. I’m sorry if you are not ready for me. It’s not your fault. Neither it’s mine. The world is broken, not us.
Anyways.
Here is what I have on my plate for the next couple of months in terms of
dates,
locations,
and requests for the universe.
Now you can’t tell me you didn’t know.
I can be booked alone or with co-creators. My calendar is especially well synchronized with Gene and WO and we still have some free dates in July and a strong will to undermine the System.
The first two weeks of May I was freezing my ass to an average temp of +11C in Norway. Turned out it was necessary to speed up the process of killing the old version of myself. That one that wants to kill me from time to time.
Looks like I’ve found its weak spot. Finally!
I’m back in Prague and generally available for bookings and creative exchange here, in Berlin by arrangements, and what’s most important for now: ONLINE.
27.05. – Kitkatclub Berlin – in charge of Let’Z Fetish Academy station (clinic area) – if you plan to be in the club and wish to collaborate on content creation – contact me asap.
19/24/29/31 – creative support groups (CBD project) – free online meetings for creators on topics of motivation, mental health, addictions, financial independence, and productivity.
Online groups on the 19th and 29th with be hosted on Chaturbate. The topic is SEX WORK, of course. Here is a post with more information on this event.
By the end of the month, I’m planning to balance between Prague and Berlin, with a few stops in the Czech countryside.
Accepting recommendations and company for wakeboarding, wind, and kitesurfing locations in CZ, DE and around EU.
We are still looking for a home in Prague for Sil and her 2 children. She is in Kyiv for now but will be back next week and I think this is my most important wish this month: to find a comfortable place for them. So if you know a real estate agent who is not an asshole could be ready to help us, or a landlord renting out 2KK+ or a bigger flat in Prague, or might know one of them, please share this request and point them to me.
UPD: fully booked for June
1st-15th – creative escape in the Czech countryside
8th – Psycho KitKat Berlin,
15th-25th Athens, Greece,
26th-31st Berlin
ONLINE:
5/12/19/26 CBD creative support groups
1 music studio, 1 rehearsal base, accountants, lawyers, drivers, likeminded people, 1 sailing teacher, 1 good psychiatrist, 1 wakeboard trainer
Partially available in Berlin and Prague, planning a show in Prague and another creative escape in the countryside after it.
Feel free to reach out about booking specific dates, my July is flexible until the end of May. More info will appear later.
BDSM ballet’s first action must happen in July, not later. Not sure if I can or should explain why. I trust myself in this and asking you to join me.
If you know me and managed to read until here – write the fuck to me already, let’s plan something. If you don’t know me, but like what I do consider supporting me or spreading the word about my projects.
Love!