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I decided to show you my day today. As close as possible.
You can watch me working on my website and waxplay project. Naked. All the tips collected today will go to helping Ukraine or in my case specific Ukrainians.
But money is not the main goal here. I feel the need to do this for a few bigger reasons. I’ll explain them on the way.
Now let’s start with the show. I plan to be online until 9 pm Berlin time with 30 min breaks every 1,5 hours.
All updates appear here below.
let’s go!
11:32 As usual the first attempt to broadcast failed. I’m restarting my laptop and I’m online now.
11:44 The first statement here today was originally meant for one specific person, but I think it might be useful for a lot more people to hear it.
You have an absolute right to do what you want in this life and not what old white people in suits want you to.
Your life belongs to you. The world belongs to you. Not the other way around.
Artists have superpowers. They can process pain and anger into something else. Something beautiful.
Did a small workout with a broomstick and sent some work emails.
The next round will be in the kitchen: I’m not sure if I want to make candles or cheesecake first, but you will get more action for sure.
12:59 Off for the first break. See you in half an hour
13:45 back for the next live round. This time we are in my kitchen and we start with candles.
14:34 Looks like I have a forced break. I’ll restart the system and come back
14:45 Small candles are in the fridge, I’m staying online a bit longer to finish UV reflective tips for big candles.
15:32 I’m tired and having another break. We will continue with the kitchen business in half an hour.
Here we are 17:27 current POV
Cheesecake is canceled due to the lack of mascarpone in the nearby supermarket but I’m almost done with the set of candles.
I miss Sil so much! On the other hand, this experience alone is valuable as hell. I received a lot of silly compliments, a bunch of new followers on different platforms, and got used to the camera even more.
This was the good stuff. Now let’s get to the answers I promised you earlier.
20:28 I ordered pizza, wrote a few more emails, booked a ticket to Berlin for this weekend, edited and published a post, wrote another email, finished a few more candles, and now checking my list for today.
21.03 As usual, not done with all the tasks. But it’s normal for me.
I’m a bit exhausted so it’s time to say good night to yall and relax.
Thanks to everyone who joined me today and those who helped me to feel real!
My dear Patrons! (I’m not just talking about the current ones, but all those who have supported me financially throughout this year and who, for one reason or another, have stopped.) In the previous post about my disappointment with Patreon as a platform, I don’t intend to devalue the enormous support you’ve given me through it.
Money from my art
Today I withdrew €205.19 that I received via Patreon over the past year and I intend to transfer it to the artist who curates my candle shop. The amount of money is not really significant, but I think it is much more valuable to have the privilege of reinvesting that money in another artist. I thought you might want to celebrate with me. All of it.
€205.19 is what’s left after Patreon takes its commission and taxes. The original amount of pledges I got was €256,47 (- €2,38 pledges to other creators).
I feel like it’s important to share more statistics about this experience. I don’t consider it very successful, but I believe it played an essential role in my self-development process.
Here is the screenshot of the transactions without names or emails but with lifetime amounts of pledges and dates:
Between March and November 2022 I almost didn’t post anything and as a result didn’t advertise my blog
I basically had two rounds of patrons – people who already knew me when I just started my blog in March and people who got to know me later. (Between May and September I almost didn’t post and only in November-December this blog became more or less populated).
From 11 beautiful humans who supported me, I personally met and know only 6. Some people come and go, and some people stay with me from the beginning. I know that some of you don’t even read my posts and I totally get it. It’s not the point.
The point is to attempt to break the system that tells us to go and get “real jobs” instead of doing what we like with our lives and bodies. Those financial transactions are very symbolic for now. However, they helped me to see my own art as an income source. This cost so much more than just 200 bucks!
What’s next? (and one more round of gratitude)
I want to state very clearly. My gratitude belongs to the people who supported me, not to the platform that took 8% commission from us all. The platform didn’t help me to get a single patron. All the leads were generated by my own website and activity on other social media. So after this platform blocked my other project I’m kinda questioning if they should be involved in the transactions further.
I thank you all very sincerely for your support. Every person who has given me money online is automatically put on my thank-you list. Today I have 11 emails to which I am sending a password that you can save and use later for special treatments. I will never forget what you did for me.
If you continue supporting me on Patreon, you can always use it to send me DMs. Patrons also still have priority for custom candle orders and events. If you are my Patron and read this – feel free to comment on this post or send me a direct message about the type of content you personally would like to see more of.
But as of this month, I stop producing unique content for Patreon since I don’t want to encourage new users to open accounts here because of my content.
I’m working on providing alternative ways to support me and will keep you informed. I hope you understand me.
Does the value system in which we currently live always bring the wrong people to power? Or does power itself corrupts those who have the most to do with it?
I don’t have an answer for you on that.
But I can at least take steps to ensure that the wrong people have less power over me and that I certainly don’t help any of them to become more powerful in any way.
I’ve already mentioned that Patreon really managed to piss me off and I gave myself time to calm down. But nothing’s really changed, I’m still just as angry as before that they’ve turned into a fucking corporation. Or have they always been one?
The thing is, they didn’t do anything to me directly. They did a lot worse. They fucked someone I was helping and messed with my feelings by doing so quite a lot. I don’t forgive that shit easily. Especially when it comes to business.
To change things, I first have to admit that I was wrong to promote Patreon, lock up unique content behind their paywall, and encourage others to get a Patreon account to see my content.
I don’t want to do that anymore. I hope my dear patrons will understand: I appreciate your support, but I don’t want to create some kind of monopoly on how to support me.
I’m not terminating my account on Patreon, but it won’t get the priority it had before. Let’s say it’s punished for now.
What does it all mean?
From now on I open the comments on all new posts and most of the new content will be public.
I’ll provide more options to support me and my projects in the next few days.
I have no pictures on my phone from last Saturday and half of the performance that I did that night unfortunately was not documented at all.
However.
slides from the performance on 25.02.2023 at Kitkatclub Berlinslides from the performance on 25.02.2023 at Kitkatclub Berlinslides from the performance on 25.02.2023 at Kitkatclub Berlin
That night for sure is going to stay in my memory and most likely in the memory of others who witnessed the show. Some pictures are coming for sure, but later. Today I only give you a chance to see how Gene was seeing me in the last few days. I have to say, I’m feeling inspired and refreshed.
As if we got one step closer to overthrowing capitalism and killing putin at the same time.
leather chain by Danilov Harnessoriginally this was a skirtbut I mostly wear it on my chestI got this item as a gift from a lover from DniproI’m wearing it weekly for already more than a yearthe quality is quite good!I’ll show you more ways of using it soonsupport Ukranian fetish brands
I’m very grateful to my colleagues from Let’Z Fetish academy and Ari Denaro specifically for letting me do my art and supporting me in my craziness.
ALSO! A huge thanks to Ben for being so helpful and brave, sorry I burned your wiener!
Another gallery of pictures where I’m already a lot more dressed shows the process of packing and signing candles. I don’t buy any special package material, all candles are packed and signed by me, and with packing materials that were already in use.
Gene has a few more candles in Berlin for picking up. The store is close to being launched. Now preparing drops for Paris and London and can accept 1-2 custom orders.
That’s more or less it for now and the train is almost arriving in Prague. Thanks for reading me.
Cheesy media outlets would call this something like “15 Amazing Ukrainian Brands That Set Women Free”, I just can’t do that shit anymore (being a part of the cheesy media world.) These are links to brands and products still being made in Ukraine today.
They’re amazing, kinky, and not only for women.
I kindly ask you to share this list with your friends or anyone looking for stylish naughty outfits and spicy fetish clothes for parties or private events. Just product photos are already pure aesthetic fun.
This war is so much about money that by supporting any Ukrainian product we help the fight for freedom and every little bit counts.
This brand is perhaps the best known as of recent, and what they do is pure art. I’m sure some of you have already noticed my colleagues tagging them or wearing their items.
Their offerings range from gorgeous sets, items in mesh and latex, and accessories like cuffs. It is especially amazing to see their efforts to respect the diversity of body types, and there are some options for male bodies in varying fabrics as well. From full-coverage bodysuits to harnesses and stockings, often on a great sale, this is an artisan brand to look extremely sexy in.
Exquisite role-playing lingerie: superheroines, uniforms, gothic and religious aesthetics with free shipping on orders over $100.
I didn’t think I was that interested in roleplaying aesthetics until I found this site. This is a rear case where the maid and nurse outfits don’t look silly but are in fact beautifully hot and powerful.
This amazing mask designer got my attention already after this post was published. One nice user on mastodon recommended them and I lost track of time on their website. Scull cross masks are my favorite, but the selection is quite wide and wild.
I personally own the Danilov harness item, it was a gift from a dear lover; a leather chain that you can see me wearing on my chest on the main page. This chain is actually a skirt… but I’ve used it in so many other ways, I’m not sure I should call it that. Anyway. The quality is incredible!
A rather innocent looking account with handmade corsages accepts custom orders and, in my opinion, should have more followers than it does at the moment. Lots of taste and passion.
It’s not really a fetish brand but look at the silky coats, they are terribly seductive. I’m not talking about the vintage style and the boho dresses they make. It’s sensual and feminine but also very modern and playful in a way. Shipping worldwide from $16.
This brand is a jewel for all stocking and garter belt lovers. The candy color combinations are extremely tasty. Delivery is to Europe and North America.
Again, it’s not really a kinky brand even though it’s from Ukraine originally and also very well known in some bubbles. I love their onesies and the whole project which leans much more towards art direction in terms of clothing production. Free worldwide shipping on orders over $385, standard shipping is $40.
The Lviv-based BDSM brand I first noticed on Instagram for the gladiator-style harnesses on female bodies also offers impact play toys, masks and necklaces. The website is in Ukrainian but it mentions delivery abroad.
Another inclusive and beautiful lingerie brand I’ve been watching for a few years doesn’t get much publicity, but I see people wearing it and looking fabulous. Worldwide delivery, free shipping on orders over $250.
If you have more kinky brands from Ukraine to add to this list let me know and I’ll be glad to update the post.
More information on how to help Ukraine right now is here.
I’m grateful that you decided to try my candles, and if it’s your first time, the basic info below is meant to make your experience safer.
Please read it carefully before playing!
what do you need to know about waxplay to enjoy it?
No hard rules have to be followed apart from consent and safety. Things can be very, very, VERY different:
sensual and slow with single drops,
intense and intriguing with solid streams of wax,
in combination with impact play,
mixed with sex toys,
also, you can turn your Sub into a human candle holder.
Whatever you do, you can absolutely do it and, (as other strangers on the internet would confirm, you have the right to choose whatever suits you best to explore your kinks. Do what you like, if it’s safe and consensual, everything else is totally optional).
Below I only describe things so you might consider them, but only the person lighting up the candle knows exactly how the play will go from there.
This is where the control exchange begins and all the beauty of it.
negotiation
Consensual power exchange starts with respect to this power on both ends. Being in charge is also a responsibility. At least this is how I see it.
Every session must begin with the negotiation stage and the party starts right after. For shy people, I can recommend negotiating some details in text messages (it’s always helpful to give all sides enough time to think things through), but I personally enjoy having little chats with my victims face-to-face about the following topics:
safe words (red, green, yellow – always work well);
areas on the skin where the wax will be applied and where it should not go;
what else is going to happen or what should not happen;
where exactly will the play happen (because waxplay can be messy)?
Wax play is essentially pain play, and even though my candles can be quite mild, the whole point of the game is to produce the chemicals in our brains. And as far as I know for those fuckers pain and pleasure can be exactly the same thing. But how to get there – everyone has their own unique recipe.
room preparations
Well, let’s start with the practical side: you might want to care for the furniture, leather surfaces, and carpets because it might be difficult to clean the wax from them.
You also might want to plan the escape path to the bathroom or shower for your victim.
If I have to improvise I usually use a bedsheet to cover the floor or wherever the sub is placed, or I cut a few big garbage bags and tape them to the floor.
A good Pain game takes time and patience
It starts with making sure everything goes through the steps so the pain level increases slowly. It’s always nice to start with hands. Just spank the spot. Or massage if you want to keep things sensual.
Everyone is different, don’t assume, ask. Explore together with your partner(s).
Always try new candles on your own skin. Ask your partner about allergies. Ideally – make a little test before playing.
do and don’ts
be careful, and remember the pain delay: the drop lands and heats a few seconds longer (try for yourself)
do spank, massage, or pet the area before
do combine with other practices and sex toys
do ask for feedback (at the beginning especially)
be creative and enjoy the mess
don’t surprise people with waxplay
don’t play with intoxicated people and watch yourself with substances
don’t ignore the fire safety basics
don’t play in an environment or location that will hate you for the wax after
don’t use candles as dildos! (they soften from body temperature)
where to put wax and not
first, start with a 20 cm distance between skin and flame, don get too close to the skin!
keep the wax away from the eyes and ears
be careful with hair
genitals are okay, but only after gaining specific consent
Removing wax
Removing the wax from the skin is much easier once it’s completely cooled down.
Thicker layers of wax fall off in bigger pieces, while single drops might stick to the skin more. You can try to prolong the play and scratch the wax from the skin with nails or something made of metal. Another fun activity is to whip the wax from the skin with a flogger, but I’m not sure if it’s still about basics.
aftercare
Give the Sub some peace after the session. No jumping around for the first 5-10 min, and in general the longer the play was – the longer the aftercare should be. Of course, everyone is different, and some people might feel very active and elevated after, while some are tired and empty.
Applying creme or aloe vera gel on the skin after the session might be very pleasurable and recommended as part of an excellent aftercare protocol.
After long painful sessions, aftercare is essential and is highly important to help process the experience and leave the most positive memory of the play.
Here is the video that I promised you earlier. I hope you have some fun watching us with Lishka. Let me know what you think!
Update. I’m slowly edition and will be adding more pictures soon
Visiting Istanbul reminded me how dangerous and broken this world is. The last time I was here was in June 2022 and I also took a few nudes here, which I show in the reflection post.
This time the room is not as photogenic, but it keeps me from feeling too bad, so that’s good enough.
Thank you for your kind support. I feel it every day.
Updated. Here is a minute of vertical material from my phone. Later I’ll spill parts of it on social media, but patrons get it al now.
This time we made 10 candles, got 3 tokens of tips, some new followers, nice compliments, and dumb questions, of course.
I definitely enjoyed the part about being watched but it’s we know this already.
Knowing that I’m probably confusing the shit out of the audience by not playing menu games or anything that they used to expect there adds a special flavor.
I also liked the part where I chained my Elf to the stairs and went for a break. We should do this more often.
Tomorrow I plan to not only make candles but test them and take pictures of them for the store.
