no substances consumption during the meeting: water only, no smoking
event is free, donations will help a lot (online donations via mycelium)
MAIN MESSAGES
the world is broken, not us – how to fix it? we talk. that is a start already!
we are all different and thus we seek help & recover differently.
how to respect that? – i will ask the group each time what would they personally see as triggers.
what should we avoid doing or saying? so each live gathering might have additional rules according to sensitivities of the participants. please respect them.
how to respect our differences and triggers and still talk about addictions openly? please share your ideas or concerns with us viamoon@sicut-dico.com
chicken and egg, IN A NUTSHELL 😉
chicken & egg dilemma or vicious circle, name it as you like, but here it is:
the more pressure we feel – the more we crave escape – then we develop addictions and need to escape from them too. sometimes we just trade or substitute addictions. but do we really escape?
we try to ban drugs without understanding that our bodies are the most sophisticated drugs dispensers ever existed, we can’t ban nature. we need to understand and take control. everyone needs to find what makes them happy. sounds easy, yet reality is hard.
for many of us even basic formula of healthy living is hardly accessible. sensible nutrition and active lifestyle, essential for good mental health and for support of our self-love and self-confidence, become somewhat of a luxury. even the knowledge itself of some specifics of your body is a privilege, as it is only available to those who have access to medical services.
how to change it? how to survive it?
together it’s easier. and even though we might not have much money, but what we have is our community. for many rich people it’s an unknown luxury.
if you feel like it is somehow fucked up, you are right, it is. humanity is going into a dangerous direction.
Here is the event concept that I want to dedicate the whole next year to. And it’s not about entertainment. It’s about survival. It is basically a very sophisticated version of an AA support group without god or guilt.
Why addiction?
Because I am an addict. And most of us are.
But I am the lucky one. I learned how to survive and now want to support the ones who are a bit less lucky.
For whom?
For everyone who doesn’t fit
Artists, atheists, sex workers, everyone who has any kind of addiction issues and especially those who don’t find traditional support groups helpful for them.
The main goal is to put an end to the hopeless cycle of making money with money for money’s sake, but this is a long-term endeavor.
So we can start by supporting the most vulnerable ones: artists and addicts. Sometimes these groups intersect for whatever reason.
When and where?
Every full moon. Online. And offline from May.
Updated in May 2024, after receiving initial feedback. It seems that Berlin needs this type of event more than others.
24/04/2024
Full Moon Addiction I: Berlin
23/05/2024
Full Moon Addiction II Berlin
22/06/2024
Full Moon Addiction III ?
21/07/2024
Full Moon Addiction IV ?
19/08/2024
Full Moon Addiction V Berlin
If you have a location where you want to host us, reach out via moon@sicut-dico.com
Why?
In this world, everything has a price. But not everything can be bought with money. No, the world is not black and white. We’re all different. We’re more than two genders, more than good and bad, we’re becoming more complex by the minute.
We live in a world where equality is synonymous with helplessness. We are prisoners of a rudimentary knowledge of the world. We make children and adults addicted to their own dopamine on a massive scale, and it’s totally legal and called social media. Yet if they manage to smoke a herb that human beings have been using for thousands of years, we prosecute them and deny them a future.
And I’m not even talking about the responsibilities of the pharmaceutical and food industries on the scale of addictions and other health issues. I don’t want to make things look too dark too quickly. I hope we can learn together how to put an end to this mess. But there is a lot of work.
My artistic goal here is to build a community of people who agree that the most important things in life are not things. At least, not material things.
My personal goal is to control my addiction to tobacco and replace it with the euphoria of helping people be themselves.
What?
Donation based tickets will be available 3 weeks before (pay what you can). One week before prices for tickets go up for the first time. Then we are rising prices on the day of the event again. It’s still capitalism, sorry. At least this way certain amount of tickets will be available for lower prices.
Support group will be available for everyone registered. For free online. Donation based offline.
We will offer separate tickets or a bundle. Yearly pass option should be available too. Online and offline. Hopefully this way some parts of the event will finance the other.
How?
To be notified when tickets are available for the next event, send us an email at moon@sicut-dico.com. And don’t hesitate to share your story with us.
It is a full day event starting at 12 midday and ending in 10-12 hrs, consisting of 5 blocks:
AUCTION / AWARD / SUPPORT / REALITY CHECK / HEALING
The auction consists of exhibiting and selling a series of works of art. The event will start with the intro of the artworks. The auction itself will take place at the very end of the event.
Award is actually about humor. I’d like to invite stand up comedians to take part in the event and make it less dramatic. (In April, the prize goes to Germany for legalizing pot and to the police in general. They win a chance to laugh and accept reality together. Also a bit of gratitude. But not all of them. I will explain this personally.) I also invite journalists and politicians to join public debates on the topics. But for the first event I just imagined a 40-50 minutes comedy show with my moderation. My guess here is that we might not be ready to talk about certain things seriously until we get to laugh about them. It’s a theory to test.
Support consists of inviting all sorts of addicts that don’t fit in other groups, as well as the people who live or work with them, to an honest conversation. Without judgment, but with a consensual exchange of views, feelings and positions. I’ll share part of my story, invite people to share theirs or ask me questions. I went to a number of support groups over the last few years. Some specialized on alcohol, some treating all addictions as sicknesses. Most of them made me feel guilty. Or broken. Yes I could see people there who seemed to be even more broken. Here is my short story.
I stopped drinking in 2018. Since 2022 I almost live without suicidal thoughts and panic attacks. I regularly support other people with similar issues. I eat and exercise. My health is finally okay and getting better. I work on multiple projects. But I smoke weed. Now I am planning to give up tobacco btw. It bothers me. But I don’t want to give up weed. I don’t smoke every day. Weed is the only drug that doesn’t make me feel like having more and more of it. I can moderate it. It is still an addiction. No plan to argue with that.
Should I feel broken though? I don’t think so. Moderation is the key. This is what I learned so far about addictions – it is so much easier to control them if we face them, call them by their names, don’t judge or punish, but understand why they form. At this point I simply want to share what helps me. And perhaps offer other people to tell their stories.
Reality checks will happen for each their own. I intend to talk about issues surrounding substances and addictions.
If it comes to my personal routine. I won’t be smoking anything the week leading up to the event. So I can have some sober experience to live through every time and be able to support others.
I do not want to promote smoking weed. But I also don’t want to hide if I do so. I think we should simply look for new ways of dealing with addictions. That I can’t imagine happening without dialogue.
I would also like to talk about the absurdity of testing strategies used now. Example. If I smoke a lot of THC weed at some point and then stop, get tested a few weeks after, the tests that are used right now most likely will not help me to prove that I didn’t smoke those weeks before. And the general issue of the misperception of good and bad drugs in our society. Or tolerance issues. The hypocrisy we foster out of ignorance will cost us dearly.
This part is for the good of future generations of sensitive people like me. We should learn how to not create addicts. Instead of stigmatizing some. Or rewarding others. In the long term I would also like to invite doctors to a discussion and those who can respect my sensitivity could actually examine me, and I’ll be happy to share my knowledge and experience with them.
photo by sashaperova.com
The healing session will be led by Gene Bogolepov. She has prepared an intense and sensual 30-minute audiovisual experience. I guess here I wonder if I can have issues with calling a musical performance a healing session. I honestly believe that art can heal. But we are not promising miracles either. The world is broken, not us.
Closing of the auction will also be streamed online.
How much?
free or donation based for support seekers, tickets to the show via mail list, mycelium members – free
All proceeds from the event above expenses will be donated to Ukraine.
As an artist, I’m generally interested in exploring the theme of sex and politics in the same room. I believe it’s still possible not to spoil the party atmosphere, but also to educate and raise awareness while offering new experiences. Please note that I don’t exist solely for entertainment.
However, as an artist eager to be commercially profitable, I fully understand the need for entertaining activities. So here’s a brief list of possibilities for an interactive waxplay station and shows. My work can be a fast, deep experience that captures all attention for a short time – that’s a package with bogolepov. Alone, I can do all-night performances in a few acts that have different levels of audience interaction.
As an anti-capitalist, I want to make it clear that I’m open to non-profit work in support of righteous ideas and needs, yet the more commercial the event agenda, the less likely I am to be cheap.
One sub performance
This is a great way to get the party started. I can finish setting up my human candlestick in front of the audience, then perform the tests or play with my victim. I usually use the steak thermometer with a needle, and sometimes offer to have the guests help me. Sometimes I ask the victim to hold the thermometer and shout out the number. It all depends on what you want from the show. The softer versions are more elegant. But I can also do more edgy things. It’s important to understand the audience’s expectations.
Interactive Station
A station is a place to experiment with different melting-temperature candles, compare them, and learn how to use them safely. When interacting with guests, I personally guide them on how to use the candles, offering safe methods for experimentation or even a quick session. I have several approaches to presenting waxplay and typically choose the one that feels most fitting in the moment while speaking with someone.
For larger events, I can bring in trained assistants to handle one or two specific scenarios, ensuring more guests can participate while maintaining safety and quality experiences.
Performances with a group of subs
I can work on a stage or immerse my show in the venue. 20 years’ experience in event production allows me to guarantee to do the best with what’s available. The more people involved, the more time I need to prepare though. Or more money.
Waxing myself
You can look at the photos of my products in the waxplay store to get an idea of what I can do. Yes, I can do it in front of an audience (if the audience is safe). I can also talk to people while I’m doing it. Politics or sex? Both, of course. Again, the level of weirdness can vary: I can be dressed up and wax my feet or… use your imagination depending on your budget.
Immersive performance with sound and video effects
with Gene, we offer shadow theater performances, sexual healing dance sets and custom installations with other creatives. To find out more about Gene, click here
This was originally a summary of a recent conversation with a party organizer. I’ve decided that you all have the right to know what kind of shows I can do. Don’t forget to read the “how to buy me” article if you want to book me.
We’re here in the Algarve until the end of February, and we’re curious to get to know local kinky and queer folk. For that matter we’re setting a few dates to meet collaborators, lovers, friends and in general people who are curious just as we are.
Who’s we?
I’m your mistress Sicut Dico. Gene is here with her immersive music, art, and more. We have a few friends along with us, who might be able to satisfy your other needs if the time comes for it.
Locations
We are currently based between Albufeira and Lisbon. We would love to know what locations are the most comfortable for you. We could meet at our villa, apartments, the beach, your place, or more. Just let us know!
Tease of the possibilities
There’s lots you can learn about what we do from our website and from the options below. We kindly ask you to fill out this form with the options that appeal to you most. Once we know what you’re into, we can get around to satisfying your needs.
This night was an immersive play in 4 acts and also a social experiment. The first two acts were unfortunately not documented due to organizational issues. But they remain in my memory and I’m sure also in the memories of those who were there that night.
I had a lot of people approaching me and telling me nice things, like that what I do is real art. It felt good at first. But then I saw how the money jar started filling up with coins, notes and.. business cards.
This part made me sad somehow. So I’d like to leave questions here. Why do some people think that their opinion is worth more than a few euros? Or is there something wrong with me?
I’m only here to bring up the questions no else can. That’s my power. The rest is yours.
That night I went to the club neither to not judge nxor ruin the party mood. I think I wanted answers for myself. I got them and feel grateful.
(Dear Manuel, thank you for your patience and will to make it work).
I learned so much that night
My brave sub was that night both a candle holder and a message carrier. I used their body to hold my laptop and display text slides. They also talked to the guests, played, and explained the slides to them, though at certain moments, this wasn’t an easy task at all.
Here you can see the slides that they displayed.
They also wrote this poem after. I think it can partially replace the missing pictures.
Massive thanks to Let’Z Fetish Academy at Kitkatclub Berlin and Ari Denaro personally for letting me take care of the clinic, special thanks to Simon for rescuing the photographer for me, and to Elina and Lilith for being amazing, supportive, but also mean and hot AF!
My laptop de-branding sticker was designed by Maladie_tattoo.
MONEY SECTION
All the money collected that night went to support Ukrainians. If you read until this point I wonder if you are curious about how much money we actually got.
I will tell you, I promise. But first I’m asking you to guess the number that you thin it is. Once you submit your guess, you’ll get the answer. What do you think of it?
Done. Didn’t manage to cover all the questions. Will try to continue tomorrow around the same time. Thanks a lot to everyone who joined. Here is the recording.
UPDATE 20.12.2023 17:58 PM
Darlings, my streaming equipment just refused to work for some time, but we are all set finally and starting in a few min! sorry for a delay
And the main topic is MONEY!
yay?
Yes, you can ask me how much I was paid for a piss and how I dared to ask for a 10k deposit. All of it.
This offer isn’t just a way for me to make some cash. It’s mainly to show others what’s possible.
Yes, this is both an act of self-presentation and an act of support for other sex workers and other artists trying to sell their work.
I don’t know exactly what the stream will look like. I can only guarantee one thing: no one has ever done this before.
So get down here around 4pm CEST tomorrow (20.12.2023) and let’s see where it goes.
(The offer is expired. No IRL meeting requests (update from 1.06.2024))
This post is primarily a photo gallery. To read more about us, you can click here for information.
I bet you want to see more of J’s photos, right? I would too. Enjoy!
J is a new-age geisha who loves to play as much as she loves to do shamanic sessions. She specializes in femdom, impact and wax play, electro games, and ropes.
Maybe we’ve piqued your curiosity?
There are so many ways to get to know J. Maybe you’d like a spanking? Or a tea ceremony, perhaps. Or both at the same time?
And since we’re here, here are a few photos of me as well, seeing as our collaborative offer is posted now
The occupied territories will be returned to Ukraine.
Crimea will be returned to Ukraine.
All who owe will pay. Living and dead.
No one involved will be unaccounted for.
Here you can find out more about how to put the above into effect through a variety of actions.
This draft text was written on 30/09/2023. I know since then we got into another oldwar, but it doesn’t the one that is already up.
NOW HERE’S A STORY ABOUT SAYING GOODBYE TO MY ‘FUCK PUTIN’ CAR
Well, and a little more to the power of words.
The car was handed over to 1uahmatters in August this year. At the beginning of the summer, I realised that it probably wouldn’t be possible to legalise the car, and I first joked in the lawyers’ office that if the car didn’t work legally in the Czech Republic, we’d give it to Ukraine and it would be fitted with a machine gun. Everyone laughed nervously, then moved on.
But I really liked the idea and it didn’t take two months to put words into action. I have to say that I’ve never parted with a car so easily and pleasantly. Even if, in the past, I had been given money for it. Thanks to everyone involved!
By the way, 1UAHMatters has set up a website where you can sign up to donate as little as 1 UAH. I won’t tell you what to do, but here’s the link.
Translation issues
As this post was originally written in Russian and is aimed directly at the audience who knew me in my previous life, some parts of the text lose meaning in translation, while others are already crystal clear to my English-speaking peeps here. However, there is an important metaphor. An important metaphor that I ask you to register in your mind. And to share your opinion if you wish.
Let’s call it a “gas cage” metaphor
Over the past year and a half, I’ve traveled Europe in a car with a terrorist state’s license plates along roughly from Tallinn to Stavanger and across, somewhere from Berlin to Athens.
There were all sorts of things.
For instance, I once talked to a “Russian” who was born in Estonia, now lives in Norway, has never been to Russia, but speaks basic Russian, and is very worried that somehow he is not very well-liked around for his Russianness. I remember thinking then, what does he have in common with Russia apart from the language?
At moments I thought I could write a book. “How I found and lost faith in humanity 42 times before I realised what was wrong with the cycle itself.” But I got over it and the book was cancelled. It wasn’t about humanity at all. And it wasn’t even about me. I thought for a while longer that it was about the language. Russian oc. And I was wrong, too.
But after a dozen meetings with Russians of varying degrees of aggression in different parts of Europe, something began to hit me.
The problem is languages per se. More precisely, many people lack the ability or experience to think in different languages. To feel the nuances of culture through them. One language locks people into bizarre cages where culture and tradition are intertwined with trauma and identity issues. I’ve written and spoken about this before.
The cage, in which these very minds have been locked up for the last hundred years, has been turned into an isolated horror bunker, slowly filled up with some moderately toxic gas. The inhabitants of this bunker/cage are convinced that you can’t turn the gas off, you can only change it to a more lethal one, so you have to put up with this one. And so they do.
WHY? NOBODY KNOWS ANYMORE. SOME TOLERATE IT OUT OF FEAR SOME OUT OF HABIT
That, by the way, was the bad news right now, and overall the saddest and most dramatic part of the post. You’re doing great if you’re still reading. I’m proud of you!
THINGS WILL GET EASIER FROM HERE ON OUT. BUT NOT FOR ALL
The good news is that I’ve met a lot more people who speak Russian by birth but also speak two or three or more other languages, who have managed to turn off the gas and get out of that cage. And I continue to meet them — almost every day.
Except that, we often don’t speak the terrorist state’s language with them. Otherwise, sometimes the gas starts unexpectedly, so we have to ventilate the room. Uncomfortable.
This language is simply punished on my end, for one thing. And sometimes it’s just impractical.
It only means there won’t be many russian texts. I still speak it, especially with some of my loved ones. Many topics are important to me, I just don’t live in the realm of the russian language. This is primarily a matter of my mental health and productivity.
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THE SERMON FINALE
As to a key takeaway – there’s none. But there is a hint, nevertheless: Only love, compassion, and cooperation can bring us forward.
Today I can definitely say only one thing: every free person with pocket money right now can make a donation of one UAH. And it will definitely help people who are dying right now for the freedom of the very knowledge that you can switch off the gas.
Перечитывая свой блог недавно, я сильно удивилась тому, сколько мелочей, о которых я там где-то вскользь желаю, стали уже реальностью как бы сами по себе.
Я понимаю, что это не ультимативно работает, но когда* клоуны устраивают свои кровавые танцы на площадях, мне эту мысль особенно хочется записать, опубликовать, пожелать, станцевать, сука, с бубном. Короче!
Это (т пиздец) закончится!
putin is a dead man
Отжатые подлостью территории вернутся Украине.
Крым вернется Украине.
Заплатят все, кто должен. Мертвые и живые.
Никто из причастных не отмоется.
По ссылке можно узнать больше как приблизить наступление написанного выше конкретными действиями.
*драфт текста написан 30/09/2023, изначально я хотела дать ссылку на то, что за повод у концертов, но передумала. Ничего важного там не случилось. Это как раз все забудут.
Теперь давайте поясню за тачку
Ну и еще немного за силу слова.
Тачка отдана донатом в 1uahmatters в августе этого года. Но еще в начала лета мне стало понятно, что скорее всего легализовать машину не получится, и сначала я в шутку сказала вслух в кабинете у юристов, что если не выйдет ее оформить легально в Чехии – то отдадим машину Украине, они поставят на нее пулемет. Все нервно хихикнули тогда, но дальше переключились на что-то еще.
А мне идея очень понравилась, и вот, смотрите, от слов до дела не прошло в итоге и двух месяцев. Я должна сказать, что никогда так легко и приятно не расставалась с машиной. Хотя раньше мне за них давали деньги. Спасибо всем причастным!
Надпись на футболке: КИЕВСКИЙ РЕЖИМ Отдельное спасибо ребятам за готовность к фото, коммуникацию, гибкость и апдейты по ходу пьесы. Дякую, хлопці!
Кстати, 1UAHMatters сделали сайт, где можно оформить донат от 1 Гривны. Я не буду говорить вам что делать, но вот тут ссылка еще раз.
Теперь за блог и язык
За прошедшие полтора года я проехала Европу на машине с русскими номерами вдоль примерно от Таллина до Ставангера и поперек, где-то от Берлина до Афин.
Было всякое. В моментах думала что можно бы книгу написать. “Как я нашла и потеряла веру в человечество 42 раза, прежде чем осознала, что не так с самим циклом”. Но я справилась и книга отменяется. Это было не про человечество вообще. И даже не про меня. Я еще какое-то время думала, что это было про язык. Русский. И тоже была не права.
Проблема в языках как таковых. Точнее в отсутствии у многих способности или опыта мыслить на разных языках. Чувствовать через них нюансы культуры. Один язык – запирает людей в очень странные ловушки, где культура и традиции переплетаются с травмой и вопросами самоидентификации. Я об этом и писала, и говорила уже, но тольком не понимала как же оно работает.
Поговорив как-то с одним “русским”, который родился в Эстонии, живет сейчас в Норвегии, в России никогда не был, но говорит базово на русском, и очень переживает, что как-то его не очень любят вокруг за его русскость. Я тогда помню зависла на мысли, а что его вообще связывает с Россией кроме языка?
И вот после десятка встречь таких руцких разной степени агрессивности в разных точках Европы до меня таки стало кое-что доходить.
Коробочка, в которую эти самые умы заперты последнюю сотню лет с хуем, превратилась в бункер с хоррор аттракционом, который травит обитателей слезоточивым газом и убеждает, что выключить газ нельзя, можно только поменять на более смертельный, так что надо терпеть этот. И они терпят.
Зачем, никто уже не знает. Терпят из страха и по привычке, кто как
Это, кстати, была плохая новость сейчас, и в целом самая печальная и драматичная часть поста. Вы молодцы, если еще читаете. Я горжусь вами!
Дальше будет полегче. Но не всем
Так вот. Хорошая новость в том, что я встретила значительно больше людей, говорящих на русском языке по рождению, но также владющих двумя-тремя или более языками, у которых получилось выключить газ. Я продолжаю встречать таких людей.
Только говорим мы с ними часто не на русском. Иначе иногда газ запускается неосознанно, приходится проветривать помещение. Неудобно.
Вот тут если вы поняли метафору, вам может стать полегче.
И я фиг знает, дамы, господа, и небинарные персоны, как иначе донести то, что я чувствую. Так вот как-то несу, расплескиваю, прошу понять и простить авансом.
это Последнее предупреждение из возможных, клянусь
Щас может быть больно всем в месте где живет любовь к родине, это нормально, товагисщи, выдыхайте. У нас проблема токсичного родителя континетального масштаба. Она решится, обязательно, но мы с вами должны дышать глубоко и помнить зачем мы здесь. Это нормально, если кто-то чувствет не так как вы. В этом и прикол. Я за этим и делюсь с вами своими чувствами. Чтобы вы откалибровали свои.
Так вот. Че я хотела вам донести?
Русский из nот май мэйн лэнгвидж, Блять anymore
Он наказан, во-первых. А иногда по-просту непрактичен.
Это всего лишь значит, что текстов на русском будет мало. Я на нем все еще говорю, особенно с близкими. Но вот многие темы, которые мне важны, на русском я просто не живу. И вам не советую. Если уже на то пошло.
Так ментальное здоровье оказалось проще поддерживать. Простите, если кому-то неприятно такое читать, я понимаю, вы возможно подписывались на гейство и рецептики, но у нас тут теперь порно и война.
Не читайте дальше, если вас тригерит мой взгляд на язык или тема суицида
Для всех, кто остался, давайте еще раз поясню текстом за всё что наслучалось: если вы знаете меня больше года, или не дай бох еще больше, вам сейчас может быть очень сложно меня понимать, даже если вы стараетесь, это ок, просто дайте себе время узнать меня заново.
Я такое уже писала несколько раз, но мне важно чтобы все услышали меня так, как мне нужно.
Версии меня, которая существовала до 24 февраля прошлого года больше с нами нет. И нет, я не в кислоте это пишу. Я вполне серьезно. Сейчас попробую обяснить почему это так важно.
Когда война перешла в активную фазу, моя суицидалка сорвала резьбу и периодически ложила меня на такое ментальное дно, что страшно становилось уже не только мне. Ну точнее наверное стоит сказать, что я не могла больше не показывать черноту внутри.
Я стала искать то ли причину, то ли способ, скорее что-то среднее, и отчасти помогло отключение языка и культуры, которые для меня были родными. Я по сути переизобрела свою личность заново. Без тригеров, без боли, без токсичных ловушек, без обид, с любовью к новой себе.
Вроде бы все даже получилось очень себе ничего.
Но было довольно непонятно что же делать с остатками уже не такой загадочной русской души. Это было последнее, что я в себе не любила. И с момента начала активной фазы войны полюбить эту часть стало еще сложнее. Сложность варьируется новостной повесткой.
Финал проповеди
А морали у басни нет.
Мы с вами подвисаем в моменте, где я предложу вам пойти в мой блог на сайте, прочитать посты на английском, посмотреть на мою голую жопу как я жила в эти полтора года, и как минимум поставить форточку на свою коробочку попытаться понять мои месседжи.
Со временем станет понятнее, обещаю. Но опять же не всем.
Сегодня же определенно могу сказать вот только одно: каждый свободный человек с карманными деньгами прямо сейчас может оформить донат в одну гривну. И это точно поможет людям, которые прямо сейчас умирают за свободу самого знания о том, что можно выключать газ.
“Bodies” is Gene’s favorite track from this album, so we started with it.
I hope we can recall here that our human body is in fact the most sophisticated of all drug dispensers, simply because it can produce unique cocktails specially designed for us.
I hope we’ll be grateful to our bodies more often.
