I have no pictures on my phone from last Saturday and half of the performance that I did that night unfortunately was not documented at all.
However.
slides from the performance on 25.02.2023 at Kitkatclub Berlinslides from the performance on 25.02.2023 at Kitkatclub Berlinslides from the performance on 25.02.2023 at Kitkatclub Berlin
That night for sure is going to stay in my memory and most likely in the memory of others who witnessed the show. Some pictures are coming for sure, but later. Today I only give you a chance to see how Gene was seeing me in the last few days. I have to say, I’m feeling inspired and refreshed.
As if we got one step closer to overthrowing capitalism and killing putin at the same time.
leather chain by Danilov Harnessoriginally this was a skirtbut I mostly wear it on my chestI got this item as a gift from a lover from DniproI’m wearing it weekly for already more than a yearthe quality is quite good!I’ll show you more ways of using it soonsupport Ukranian fetish brands
I’m very grateful to my colleagues from Let’Z Fetish academy and Ari Denaro specifically for letting me do my art and supporting me in my craziness.
ALSO! A huge thanks to Ben for being so helpful and brave, sorry I burned your wiener!
Another gallery of pictures where I’m already a lot more dressed shows the process of packing and signing candles. I don’t buy any special package material, all candles are packed and signed by me, and with packing materials that were already in use.
Gene has a few more candles in Berlin for picking up. The store is close to being launched. Now preparing drops for Paris and London and can accept 1-2 custom orders.
That’s more or less it for now and the train is almost arriving in Prague. Thanks for reading me.
Cheesy media outlets would call this something like “15 Amazing Ukrainian Brands That Set Women Free”, I just can’t do that shit anymore (being a part of the cheesy media world.) These are links to brands and products still being made in Ukraine today.
They’re amazing, kinky, and not only for women.
I kindly ask you to share this list with your friends or anyone looking for stylish naughty outfits and spicy fetish clothes for parties or private events. Just product photos are already pure aesthetic fun.
This war is so much about money that by supporting any Ukrainian product we help the fight for freedom and every little bit counts.
This brand is perhaps the best known as of recent, and what they do is pure art. I’m sure some of you have already noticed my colleagues tagging them or wearing their items.
Their offerings range from gorgeous sets, items in mesh and latex, and accessories like cuffs. It is especially amazing to see their efforts to respect the diversity of body types, and there are some options for male bodies in varying fabrics as well. From full-coverage bodysuits to harnesses and stockings, often on a great sale, this is an artisan brand to look extremely sexy in.
Exquisite role-playing lingerie: superheroines, uniforms, gothic and religious aesthetics with free shipping on orders over $100.
I didn’t think I was that interested in roleplaying aesthetics until I found this site. This is a rear case where the maid and nurse outfits don’t look silly but are in fact beautifully hot and powerful.
This amazing mask designer got my attention already after this post was published. One nice user on mastodon recommended them and I lost track of time on their website. Scull cross masks are my favorite, but the selection is quite wide and wild.
I personally own the Danilov harness item, it was a gift from a dear lover; a leather chain that you can see me wearing on my chest on the main page. This chain is actually a skirt… but I’ve used it in so many other ways, I’m not sure I should call it that. Anyway. The quality is incredible!
A rather innocent looking account with handmade corsages accepts custom orders and, in my opinion, should have more followers than it does at the moment. Lots of taste and passion.
It’s not really a fetish brand but look at the silky coats, they are terribly seductive. I’m not talking about the vintage style and the boho dresses they make. It’s sensual and feminine but also very modern and playful in a way. Shipping worldwide from $16.
This brand is a jewel for all stocking and garter belt lovers. The candy color combinations are extremely tasty. Delivery is to Europe and North America.
Again, it’s not really a kinky brand even though it’s from Ukraine originally and also very well known in some bubbles. I love their onesies and the whole project which leans much more towards art direction in terms of clothing production. Free worldwide shipping on orders over $385, standard shipping is $40.
The Lviv-based BDSM brand I first noticed on Instagram for the gladiator-style harnesses on female bodies also offers impact play toys, masks and necklaces. The website is in Ukrainian but it mentions delivery abroad.
Another inclusive and beautiful lingerie brand I’ve been watching for a few years doesn’t get much publicity, but I see people wearing it and looking fabulous. Worldwide delivery, free shipping on orders over $250.
If you have more kinky brands from Ukraine to add to this list let me know and I’ll be glad to update the post.
More information on how to help Ukraine right now is here.
I’m grateful that you decided to try my candles, and if it’s your first time, the basic info below is meant to make your experience safer.
Please read it carefully before playing!
what do you need to know about waxplay to enjoy it?
No hard rules have to be followed apart from consent and safety. Things can be very, very, VERY different:
sensual and slow with single drops,
intense and intriguing with solid streams of wax,
in combination with impact play,
mixed with sex toys,
also, you can turn your Sub into a human candle holder.
Whatever you do, you can absolutely do it and, (as other strangers on the internet would confirm, you have the right to choose whatever suits you best to explore your kinks. Do what you like, if it’s safe and consensual, everything else is totally optional).
Below I only describe things so you might consider them, but only the person lighting up the candle knows exactly how the play will go from there.
This is where the control exchange begins and all the beauty of it.
negotiation
Consensual power exchange starts with respect to this power on both ends. Being in charge is also a responsibility. At least this is how I see it.
Every session must begin with the negotiation stage and the party starts right after. For shy people, I can recommend negotiating some details in text messages (it’s always helpful to give all sides enough time to think things through), but I personally enjoy having little chats with my victims face-to-face about the following topics:
safe words (red, green, yellow – always work well);
areas on the skin where the wax will be applied and where it should not go;
what else is going to happen or what should not happen;
where exactly will the play happen (because waxplay can be messy)?
Wax play is essentially pain play, and even though my candles can be quite mild, the whole point of the game is to produce the chemicals in our brains. And as far as I know for those fuckers pain and pleasure can be exactly the same thing. But how to get there – everyone has their own unique recipe.
room preparations
Well, let’s start with the practical side: you might want to care for the furniture, leather surfaces, and carpets because it might be difficult to clean the wax from them.
You also might want to plan the escape path to the bathroom or shower for your victim.
If I have to improvise I usually use a bedsheet to cover the floor or wherever the sub is placed, or I cut a few big garbage bags and tape them to the floor.
A good Pain game takes time and patience
It starts with making sure everything goes through the steps so the pain level increases slowly. It’s always nice to start with hands. Just spank the spot. Or massage if you want to keep things sensual.
Everyone is different, don’t assume, ask. Explore together with your partner(s).
Always try new candles on your own skin. Ask your partner about allergies. Ideally – make a little test before playing.
do and don’ts
be careful, and remember the pain delay: the drop lands and heats a few seconds longer (try for yourself)
do spank, massage, or pet the area before
do combine with other practices and sex toys
do ask for feedback (at the beginning especially)
be creative and enjoy the mess
don’t surprise people with waxplay
don’t play with intoxicated people and watch yourself with substances
don’t ignore the fire safety basics
don’t play in an environment or location that will hate you for the wax after
don’t use candles as dildos! (they soften from body temperature)
where to put wax and not
first, start with a 20 cm distance between skin and flame, don get too close to the skin!
keep the wax away from the eyes and ears
be careful with hair
genitals are okay, but only after gaining specific consent
Removing wax
Removing the wax from the skin is much easier once it’s completely cooled down.
Thicker layers of wax fall off in bigger pieces, while single drops might stick to the skin more. You can try to prolong the play and scratch the wax from the skin with nails or something made of metal. Another fun activity is to whip the wax from the skin with a flogger, but I’m not sure if it’s still about basics.
aftercare
Give the Sub some peace after the session. No jumping around for the first 5-10 min, and in general the longer the play was – the longer the aftercare should be. Of course, everyone is different, and some people might feel very active and elevated after, while some are tired and empty.
Applying creme or aloe vera gel on the skin after the session might be very pleasurable and recommended as part of an excellent aftercare protocol.
After long painful sessions, aftercare is essential and is highly important to help process the experience and leave the most positive memory of the play.
Here is the video that I promised you earlier. I hope you have some fun watching us with Lishka. Let me know what you think!
Update. I’m slowly edition and will be adding more pictures soon
Visiting Istanbul reminded me how dangerous and broken this world is. The last time I was here was in June 2022 and I also took a few nudes here, which I show in the reflection post.
This time the room is not as photogenic, but it keeps me from feeling too bad, so that’s good enough.
Thank you for your kind support. I feel it every day.
Updated. Here is a minute of vertical material from my phone. Later I’ll spill parts of it on social media, but patrons get it al now.
This time we made 10 candles, got 3 tokens of tips, some new followers, nice compliments, and dumb questions, of course.
I definitely enjoyed the part about being watched but it’s we know this already.
Knowing that I’m probably confusing the shit out of the audience by not playing menu games or anything that they used to expect there adds a special flavor.
I also liked the part where I chained my Elf to the stairs and went for a break. We should do this more often.
Tomorrow I plan to not only make candles but test them and take pictures of them for the store.
Update 3 (06.02.23): yay, first tips received, so we plan to come back tomorrow, on Tuesday 7.02.23, 8 am Berlin time. Thanks for all the comments and shares.
Update 2 (05.02.23): The next live cam show is scheduled for Monday, 9 am Berlin time.
Update 1: done for tonight, thanks to everyone who joined, here are the resulting snapshots. We might continue, it was fun.
I have to find out what happens if I allow people to sneak after my candle-making process live that I also intend to do dressed in outfits I usually wear at Kikatclub in Berlin.
I’m not sure if I can fully explain why exactly I decided to test this theory before the others, but I’m very sure it’s one of those moments when it’s a lot easier just to do the thing and find out.
Shall we?
Here is the link to my Chaturbate account, but you can also watch me just here below
The first half of the reflection posts is published for patrons and the other half of last year (which I would love to publish) is still a huge pile of content to process. Technically and emotionally – both. Some events require more time to understand how I feel about them.
Even though this post was also rotting in drafts for a while and I happen to devalue myself twice a day, it looks like the art of small steps is still working for me. Some progress is still happening.
déjà vu
Now I’m at the funny stage where it’s already time to have money coming from projects, but instead, I have another identity crisis to deal with. I’m not sure if it is a good thing in general, but I became so familiar with those crises, so it doesn’t even feel like a big drama. The world is falling apart anyway.
Money topics used to be terribly unsexy for me by default and my project is partly helping to change this statement. I’m as curious as you are to see where it brings us.
I heard so many people already telling me that my ideas are stupid and pointless, so I can’t wait to act and see for myself.
Candle store
In a few days, I’ll launch the candle store on my website, where only patrons and friends will get access first. Since I can’t produce more than 10 candles a day anyway they always will be up to limited availability.
The first drop will be only available (to pick up) in Europe, a bit later I hope to offer worldwide delivery.
The slightly crazy part is that I want to stream the process of making candles to smth like Chaturbate or so. I’m setting up an account there and planning the first stream for the next week. I think it should add to the uniqueness of the candles as well as entertain my inner exhibitionist. Would you watch me?
Here is the video from our camera test with Sil last Wednesday btw.
With a webcam deal, I won’t feel too bored too fast with this whole business hustle. Hopefully. Because now while making all the calculations, business plans, and procedures I can’t say I felt like it was something I want to do a lot.
BUT. We all need money, and some of us also need good waxplay candles. Perhaps we can make each other slightly happier at this point.
If you know me and would like to try my candles in exchange for exposure and honest feedback – contact me asap
If you like my idea and would be curious to see how it develops, please support me and here is how:
Yesterday was a day of technical misery and frustration; I was too ambitious about my plans and didn’t think everything through.
So the issue was, that from two cameras only one was recording 😞. We will try again next week to make a proper tutorial for patrons.
But for now, I just squeezed the 20 minutes into a single one, so we all can enjoy the butt of my lovely friend Lishka💕, who actually tried waxplay for the first time yesterday!
Also, she could confirm that some of the candles are pretty mild. On the edge of boring. So we’re looking to fix that 🔥for the next time too.
June’s reflection brought me to not only publish that nude yoga video (June’s reflection part 1) for public observance but also to write this appreciation post, where I want to say a massive
THANK YOU
to the people who supported me with my exploration journey in 2022.
First of all
Thank you, Patrons! Without you believing in me at the beginning of this year, I wouldn’t be able to gather the inner resources to do what I eventually did.
The reflection project is my attempt to make my blog better structured and more consistent. But I feel like it’s a great investment in life for people like me, who like to live fast and devalue our own achievements. It feels good to slow down, breathe, and look back.
For the door to the kinky Narnia backstage of Let’Z Fetish Academy that you so kindly opened for me, and thanks for supplying me with tools and techniques as well.
Ari Denaro is showing how things are done. You can see me trying to compete in the background.
But most of all, thank you for accepting me for who I am, accepting my ways, and the ethics that I carry. Thank you for your free spirit, curiosity, and will to understand new.
I’m grateful for your trust. But you know this already. So just fucking big ass thank you, dear Ari!
for the amazing headpiece, for being an even more amazing friend, and for all your talent and help! I can’t wait for the next round of creating something together.
The outfit for Psycho Dark party in June that you see in the gallery below was done by Julia. I think I’d like to wear it more next year, I like I how it makes me feel. If you go to Ari’s website you can see more pictures from Psycho parties btw.
It’s always a pleasure to deal with you, and thank you for being so sweet.
Here is the gallery. Enjoy!
Thank you, beautiful Ángela. You were such a pleasure!
Since I started naming people, I’m not sure exactly how to stop. It’s so many of you, my dear friends and lovers, to whom I want to scream: THANK YOU FOR BEING IN MY LIFE.
But let’s make a deal. I’ll name the Slut, Gene, and Sil because I already introduced them here and they are my closest family. Thank you, darlings, just for who you are.
I also have to name Shanti and Kay, because they are involved in the recent posts. Shanti gave me an Interview about hooks and ropes, and Kay was once a very cool creative partner in crime I used her pictures to illustrate another post (Born weird) that I decided to make public this year.
So the rest of the deal is that I stop naming people I want to thank, so we can all have our lives. And you start clicking on the links and getting to know me a bit better. Because that was the whole plan.
Support my blog if you like the content. I’m planning to have a few days off from posting now, and come back with fresh nudes and stories. I still have so much to tell!
This one is intimate. I’m giving you the view that only my husband could enjoy, and he said he very much enjoyed it, along with his morning coffee, back in my old flat in Berlin.
So I suspect some of you might enjoy it as well🙂.
For the exhibitionist inside me, my balcony in Berlin was an excellent place to get some relatively safe exposure on a daily basis.
And nude yoga was an excellent recharging practice for me. I still remember the cold wind on my private parts. It felt so nice! And right now, I’m really missing that feeling.
I did this more than once, but only once I filmed myself. Later I had no idea what to do with this video, not for the whole year.
