(CW: addictions, politics, nudity, profanity, capitalism and war mentions. Watch your screen time, highly addictive content)
The first episode contains 4 vertical videos, 2 text posts, 3 music tracks, and photo galleries with 30+ photos. Full showcase watching time is around 6 minutes. Scroll down for separate pieces and hidden messages.
Reflection (text) posts with music and photo galleries:
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Nansea (ˈnænsi) is the musical moniker of Berlin-based musician Marek Polgesek. With their music, they create a queer indie/chamber pop sound that goes beyond the traditional singer-songwriter style, while paying tribute to gender nonconforming artists that inspire them. Their sound has been described as a ‘more whimsical Rufus Wainwright’ and reminiscent of Thom Yorke and Sufjan Stevens.
AntiShanti will help us maintain the kinky atmosphere, we’re hoping to find the right ropes to offer (in limited quantities) simple harnesses that you can wear overnight and keep the rope as a souvenir
Here is Shanti and an example of that harnesses she can make for the guests
Of course, we’re also preparing a shibari show, so come early to see it. Doors open at 7pm. For more details on the kinky side of the event, go to fetlife. Below is a gallery of what to expect from Shanti.
What is so special about the show?
For me, every show is a discovery of new forms of communication and establishing invisible connections that we build with the people who come to see it. Although I normally put a lot of effort into planning & creating a performance, it’s the unexpected that makes every show magical to me – every audience is different and I love forming a language that we all understand at each of my concerts.
Everyone who wants to have a few hours of freedom to be themselves, dance, compliment each other, get to know the queer culture in it’s essential and meet new friends.
What is ‘queer pop’?
Queer Pop, as we see it, is a sort of pop music that does not correspond to established ideas of mainstream pop. For Gene it’s a manifestation of creative freedom, where she is not afraid to mix genres without limitations. Ah, and such music is made by a queer artist, indeed.
This event is queer and hetero-friendly, welcoming everyone to celebrate together.
Why should you share it with a friend?
Because this is the only way for them to know about our event. We are not using traditional marketing. So yes, tell your friends about Bogolepov’s music and if they like it, come to the show together.
How to support:
Money for music: Buy a Mycelium subscription. Or choose one time donation.
Pay It Forward: Buy an extra ticket and let us give it to someone who needs it.
Kindness: Share this post or tell your friends about our show.
Both:Buy our sexy music and share it with friends! To get free tickets, email us. Know someone who’d love to come? Share this information with them.
What to expect from the event:
We aim to give you the party of a lifetime, without the hangover. Doors will open at 19:00. This post will be updated with more details, feel free to ask questions.
So dress kinky, slutty or come in your pajama. Our show is an audio-visual-sensual experience, featuring two concerts and immersive performances.
singles collection is now available on all streaming platforms (search for BOGOLEPOV)
Who we’re crafting this event for:
Sensitive individuals seeking intelligent experiences with mindful substance use. The bar will be open as usual, but we’ll have more alcohol-free options than usual.
We encourage a sober evening filled with dancing, singing, and kindness to each other. Enjoy the company of like-minded people and feel safe to be yourself – that’s what we like to get high on.
Everyone who buys a ticket or joins via Mycelium gets a link to join our networking chats.
Rewrite it, screenshot it, share the link, or tell your friends in an audio message. Anything help! Love sees no borders or absolutes, and we are stronger together.
We’re still giving free tickets to the show in Berlin to those who can’t afford them. For everyone else, please support our business model. Someone has to pay the bills!
Special guest:
LoboLoto
Synth Pop, Dark, Triphop, Transcendental Alice Lobo (Vocals, Synthesizers, Guitars, Keyboard) Vince Gagliardi (Drums, Percussion) Emerging from the shadows of an industrial urban landscape, LoboLoto is a hauntingly hypnotic band that seamlessly blends the pulsating rhythms of synth pop with the brooding intensity of dark wave, all while weaving in elements of transcendental mysticism. Formed in 2015 as a solo project of Alice Lobo, LoboLoto has just welcomed Vince Gagliardi to make the sounds even more defined and at the culmination of an experience on the edge of esotericism. Alice Lobo, the ethereal voice and primary lyricist of the group, channels the mysteries of the cosmos and the depths of human emotion through her haunting vocals bringing a unique blend of elegance and enigma to the band’s sound. Vince Gagliardi, also known for his projects Vū and The Nent, is a multi-instrumentalist and drummer who adds layers of rich melodies and dark, driving rhythms. His background in electronic music, combined with his penchant for complex arrangements, creates a sonic depth that is both immersive and expansive. LoboLoto’s music explores themes of existential longing, cosmic transcendence, and the eternal dance between light and darkness. Their last album, “Metamorphosis” released in January 2024, isa critical and commercial success, praised for its innovative fusion of genres and its deeply emotive resonance. Tracks like “Come Back To Life” and “Heaven” became anthems for those seeking solace in the night. Known for their visually stunning live performances, LoboLoto combines immersive light shows (when possible) with captivating stage presence, creating an otherworldly experience that transports audiences to a realm where time and space blur, and only the music remains. LoboLoto invites listeners to join them on a journey through the shadows, towards the light of self-discovery and cosmic connection.
CW: (mentoring session review, strong personal opinion)
How do you know if the session was useful?
I spent years in therapy, mixed with coaching, before I understood what was useful and what was harmful. Today, I have very clear criteria. A good coach will almost never tell you what to do. The best ones just listen and ask questions that make you think deeper or see another perspective. That’s pretty much what I was looking for. And what I got.
Last month, I booked an online mentoring session with Her, and it was absolutely amazing and insightful (no sarcasm, I’m deadly serious here). She supported me and said, “Looks like you are all set.” I thought so too. We made a plan.
I was supposed to go to Berlin to film the last bits of season one, shoot a promo campaign, and launch it all at once. However. I badly underestimated my own marketing powers, slightly overestimated some people, and a bit forgot how rude and chaotic Berlin can be.
Long story short: My plan went to shit.
None of the play spaces confirmed my reservations. My editor left the project indefinitely. A week was lost to German bureaucracy. Now, I’m behind on posting plans, content production and promo requests. By now, all six episodes should be out, and I should be on vacation.
It’s not all bad. I got a lot done. Gene’s tickets are on sale, posters are almost ready, many artists are on board, and the first content is leaking into mainstream media — even TikTok. God forgive me.
How is this connected to her?
Well, I thought you are here to learn how dominatrix’s are made.
I initially thought the call was just a vibe check. I was greedy, thinking I needed an in-person meeting to get all the skills and wisdom right away.
I told Her I was grateful for that 30-minute session. And it meant a lot to me to support another sex worker with an online payment. However. Only weeks later did I realize that session worked as therapy for me—a damn good one. And I need another.
So, here’s my honest feedback:
Her calm, professional communication made me reflect deeply on my goals and rethink my summer plan. I realized I don’t need to be greedy. I have plenty of time, and a lot of work is already done.
If I keep running like before, I won’t have time to enjoy the results of my hard work.
So for now I am publishing this post, booking another session with her for this Friday, and checking in to a spa hotel.
This is technically our fourth moon together. If I wasn’t still convinced that we all need to learn more about co-existing with our addictions instead of dividing them into good and bad and derailing our healing process, I’d probably abandon the concept of the event. Especially after doing my own reality check by talking to and visiting a few organizers of different types of sobriety events.
It is not an easy task to learn how to party sober. I know. But I belive in us.
Btw here is a sober rave in Berlin on the 10th of August.
So today I’m posting my message of support and I intend to read it on video. Gene is preparing some musical surprises as usual. The lunar peak is over. Thanks to everyone who sent me love or requests for support. I’m glad we’re together through this.
Here is the link to the IG account dedicated to the event.
CW: unconditional love, justification for the desire to co-create
(We send each artist mentioned official requests to their managers with specific details at the same time as the posts with their names are published)
Dear creator,
Whoever you are, young artist or big star, if I mention you here, it’s because I’m grateful to have you in my life. And to have my life the way it is today. In my darkest moments, YOU AND YOUR ART have helped me to keep on living and fighting. And that means a lot to me.
Thank you for what you have brought to life.
Thank you for being brave.
For being true.
For the strength you have given me, and perhaps many others, by not only showing the stronger sides of life with your art.
Your powers are incredible.
On top of my gratitude I am trying to give you my bravest and most honest version.
I reach out to say that my main goal, by mentioning you here, is to share with many other people my knowledge about you. The experience that you have brought. I believe I am a bridge that can help connecting things don’t easily come together. I m sure you are one too.
Since people already accused me in mentioning you to try to get your attention, or profit from your name, fame, etc. Well. Of course your attention would flatter me.
However.
I don’t expect anything more from you than to be who you already are.
If you happen to find my work interesting or see how your creativity could benefit from collaborating with mine, I’ll be more than happy to help you or provide more information on my resources.
If you’d like to give my project a shutout, contact me for personalized tracking links first. Also I have small budgets for promo this year I will not pay to platforms. Only to people.
If you would like me to stop mentioning you, please let me know, I will respect that.
(CW: marketing, strong personal opinion, suicide, war mentions)
In the more than a year that the shop has been in existence, I’ve received enough complaints that the whole concept is simply disturbing, confusing and above all that the user has to wonder who is Oxxxymiron, or who is Marina Abramovich, or if they know both, some are even more confused and annoyed that I’ve dared to name them in one place. Since this distracts them from the product, they leave the page before buying. What a shame.
We live in an age of reactions and post-reactions. People see what they want to see. I have to explain myself if I want my message to remain clear. So… If this project is close to your heart in any way and you need clarification, here it is. Please read carefully. Words underlined in rainbow are links.
Wax play store update
It was always and foremost an artistic project. The performance is still going on as this is being read. Making money with this shop was never the main objective. Although all the candles I produced sold out almost immediately, that’s the main reason why the shop is empty today: I don’t have the time.
So what’s the point of creating such a mess if I don’t even make money from it?
Because I could and felt obliged to do it. And that’s still the case today. No regrets. Only advantages. I still can make candles any time I need them, so I have the product for myself. I can always make some extra cash with it if I need to. I have amazing collaboration tool. I can go on and on, but here is the cherry on the top of my cake of reasons to do what I did.
Even if you find this page and this idea utterly disturbing and never buy my candles, all I need is for you to wonder about one of the names I’ve mentioned. The power of art will do the rest.
Technical part. How to get the candles
For now, the only way to get them soon is through Gene’s Mycelium, we have a unique batch that we made in Portugal this winter and we will be giving it away to the fan base first.
Please don’t send me offers based on making money from my ideas. If you need candles in large quantities and of any quality, I’m not your dealer either.
If you want to make your own candles or collab on this topic, email me, I need help and I can teach you.
For wax play performance requests, check out this article.
Ideological part
Now let’s get to the part where I try to explain the connection with the names. And trying is the key word here. Those who are not ready to understand will always find a reason to be offended or whatever.
Why Marina
If our planet had to choose the art ambassador to send to an assembly with other civilizations, I wouldn’t think of another candidate. If she says no, she will probably propose a suitable alternative. So we should ask her anyway.
Her work embodies the curiosity and honesty I’ve found hard to embrace in myself. She’s not afraid to do so many things that others can’t even imagine. She understands this world so much clearer and, what’s particularly important to me, she shares it with other people. She is one of the bravest and most selfless artists.
If the Kremlin’s investigative committee wasn’t campaigning for him, I’d never have listened to his music. But I did and now I’m hooked. I listen to a few songs in the shower almost daily and it helps me deal with my anger.
This is the only artist i bought a ticket and went to a live show since pandemic. If you know me you should know how much it speaks for the artist.
I know all the lyrics aren’t accessible to English speakers, but if you want to try it, do. It’s hard to recommend where to start, but below are links to songs from different years that I listen to particularly often.
The last call (2010) is an officially extremist song about school shootings. Oida (2022) the re-assembling set in my store was inspired by this song. This one is fresh.
This whole mixtape I would recommend to play extra loud if you have some russian speaking neighbors. Solid character test.
How dare I
Because I want to live in a world where we’re not afraid to say: you inspired me to create! Where we treat each other first and foremost as human beings with feelings.
I understand how privileged I am to be able to simply allow myself to create a product that is not designed to be sold to all. I also understand the confusion. Even the attacks and demands.
I am grateful beyond words for all of it.
I wouldn’t be who I am today without the artists I mention on this site. If any of them ask me to remove their name, I will.
Please don’t take offense on their behalf though. Here’s an open letter to the creators and influences mentioned on this page or likely to be mentioned in the future.
Here is a gallery of photos from the candle making session in Portugal.
If I have to introduce myself on a dating app, I say I’m an adult content creator or a professional villain.
When I want to appear “normal”, I introduce myself as an art manager, or an event producer, or simply as an artist.
Very often, I say that I’m a former marketing strategist and project manager who now only accepts to sell art or sex.
For those who want to fuck my artists without my permission, I’m a pimp. A hardcore pimp, with lawyers and thugs on my side.
For kind weirdos, queers and all kinds of perverts I preach self love and acceptance. Hope for a change. Confidence. Power to be whoever the fuck you want.
Sometimes I simply perform and entertain. Sometimes I also just survive and fight.
Honestly? I have so many roles and characters that I can lose myself. Then I hire professionals.
In this case, Vika Temnova is 1000%. Not only did she manage to see me as I am in a simple video call and brief meeting, but she also met six members of my team, dressed them in other people’s clothes, styled us all in less than an hour, and made sure we all fell in love with her.
On top of that, she’s a Ukrainian artist and the fact that she agreed to work with me is a huge honor. Follow her on IG (and consider donating to Ukraine if you have a steady income).
The first episode of ‘What the fuck is Sicut Dico’ is out btw. Thanks to everyone who supported me along the way. I love you.
The photos we’re publishing now are just previews. Behind-the-scenes videos will soon be available on fan sites.
Creative directing, photography and style:Vika Temnova
a few more details about this collaboration to disclose:
These photos were taken on Wednesday (10.07) of this week.
On Tuesday, Vika Temnova spent 6 hours in +30°C heat driving around Berlin without air conditioning to choose clothes for people she hadn’t even seen.
On Monday, we cancelled the promotion of Gene’s concert at Berghain because kremlin terrorists had bombed a hospital in Kiev over the weekend.
I’ve hired Vika to shoot a promotional campaign for my own website and her next task is to help my dear assistant Sil, based in Kiev, with the avatar, banner photo and so on.
So I’d like to turn this collaboration into a little political performance and ask you, my lovely audience, to help us fund and promote this project to raise awareness of the current situation in Ukraine.
Why should we do this? Because the world needs to know how it feels. Because artists are the people who should speak out the most. We should not get used to what is going on.
Because the fight against fascism is a task for us all. Yes, Ukraine is on the front line, but the war is all over the world. We have to look deeper inside to win. Each within ourselves. And we can’t win this fight without art.
(CW: addictions, politics, nudity, profanity, capitalism and war mentions. Watch your screen time, highly addictive content)
The first episode contains 4 videos, 2 text posts, 3 music tracks, and galleries with 50+ photos. Full showcase watching time is around 7 minutes.
Part 1. Hello
Welcome to the first episode. What’s it all about? You’ll get a look at my life over the past four years—how a dominatrix is made and where that path leads us all.
The video (which I hope you just watched) was filmed almost accidentally while I was exploring a BDSM playground built for long sessions and intense scenarios. The song you hear in the background is Skin, created by BOGOLEPOV, my dear friend and music diva, that I introduce in the next part of the episode.
You can listen to the full track while reading the post “Born Weird” Your choice—read it now and come back, or scroll through the videos and my 2025 intro first.
Part 2. Gene
I am sure you skipped the disclaimer at the beginning, so here is the important part from it about both me and Gene: we created this series to show what it feels like to earn money with your art—and also to actually earn money. Hopefully. Let’s see?
Gene: “While looking for a photo of Sicut’s tits, I came across many photos in my camera roll before 2022 and SHE WEARS CLOTHES THERE!! After mid-2022 – not a single one where’s she’s dressed (well, except for fetish attire perhaps, hehe)”
By the end of this season, you should have some basic idea of who the fuck I am—and why you should give me money.
Part 4. Rules
Pay attention to the content warnings and explore the content at your own pace. To follow this project send an email request* to wtf@sicut-dico.com
All creators mentioned in the process will be contacted by us or are already aware of what is happening. Please don’t take offense on behalf of another artist. If THEY ask me to remove the mention, I will.
Posts from 2022—the year that changed everything for me
to “FOLLOW” this project send any email to wtf@sicut-dico.com (empty email is ok, feedback is welcome too)
Any unauthorized use of my name, video, photos or audio in any form, now or in the future, is NOT permitted without my express written consent. Any act to promote or profit in any way (e.g., monetarily or socially) from the use of my name, video, photos or audio in any form in my profile is a violation of my privacy and may be subject to legal action
Below is a list of public accounts on which I appear (in one way or another) promoting my NSFW content, listed in alphabetical order. Bear in mind that any unique content is first published on my website (or fan sites) and then, with some delay and censorship, makes its way to my social media. I just cant care less for that vanity fair.
I do not run all social accounts myself. Only the one on Mastodon is fully posted by me. But my media elfs check them all daily and moderate with no resurrection options, so please behave.
Read my social media statements if you want to know more about how I manage not to care about followers and likes.
Cooperation with influencers, agencies and brands is only possible via sicut@sicut-dico.com. (I’m open to sharing my technical knowledge, resources and expertise in exchange for media outreach, don’t hesitate to get in touch).
(CW) sober gathering with undressing options after 22pm
UPDATE SAT 22.06
Unfortunately, the weather is too wild and unpredictable today, so we’re giving you our support via personal messages.
Here’s the telegram link, if you need help today, write to us there, we’ll check it every hour.
For Mycelium members, my location may be revealed, but it seems today I’m moving around the city a lot.
The kinky agenda will be taken care of by Sil and me starting tomorrow.
UPDATE FRI 21.06
We decided to start with a picnic on the Tempelhofer feld, so we do not limit the capacity of participants. Please still let us know if you want to come via email, we will send you the pin. (The location will be automatically posted for Mycelium members).
We will start the gathering at 16:00. Please spread the word so everyone who is in need of such event can know and come.
Here is the update on the part about being sober, since I’ve received a lot of feedback from people who would like to moderate their consumption but can’t give it up completely.
Please share this with anyone who needs support to moderate their substance use or has mental health issues related to cruelty of capitalism.
Our sober gathering on Saturday is FREE and open to everyone.
We don’t require you to be absolutely clean.
We won’t shame you or judge. Won’t tell you how to live either. We will be just there to talk, hug, and listen to the music.
We just ask that you don’t use anything during the event and that you don’t encourage other participants to use any substance, including sugar and caffeine.
The live music from Bogolepov will happen in acoustic format at around 17:00.
After 22 there will be options to join me for the kinky event, use the same email to sing up.
